"him"

his name is written in white
a victim of stupidity
i never met him
but everyday i saw his name on the street sign of my bus stop

he died too early
and for no reason at all

and ill always remember him

RIP Anthony Tempesta
a victim of the 9/11 terror attacks

i hear the crickets sing their love songs and serenades

one of the things i love about this place
you can always hear the crickets at night
and birds in the morning

nothing like hometownss


i hope my grandma will let me walk around a bit

lets see if i can convince her to let me go to my old bus stop
i need to see his name again.

oh and did i mention

i kinda sorta





















quit my job.

in back

in my grandparents house again
im staying til tuesday

bah
i kinda dont wanna be here but i guess i dont mind it
im just not at all used to being in my old room again
and i know ive said that a million times but its true

Arr! I'm looking for me burried treasure!

im at gy grandparents house.
&&im spending the night for the first time since we moved out
im in my old room and its just so weird
everything is rearranged but everything is the same.
all my stuff is in the attic and i found some pretty cool things::

-a picture of my grandma when she was my age [shes so beautiful. they called her baby]
-old love letters to my uncle from my aunt
-some of my uncle ninos old projects from college and his web design/art classes
-old things that i wrote and that my mother wrote
-a really old typewriter that my grandpa said i could keep if i could fix it
-and my grandfather is giving me his printer :D

its so cool being here again. i missed it so much. now that im here...im so happy, its just as noisy outside as i remember but quiet enough to hear crickets


im glad i came :D

i was bored last night...

I Slept With Someone From Fall Out Boy and All I Got Was This Stupid Song Written About Me

I found the cure to growing older
And you're the only place that feels like home
Just so you know, you'll never know
And some secrets weren't meant to be told
But I found the cure to growing older

I'm the first kid to write of hearts, lies, and friends
And I am sorry my conscience called in sick again
And I've got ^arrogance down to a science
Oh, and I'm the first kid to write of hearts, lies, and friends

Douse yourself in cheap perfume it's
So fitting, so fitting of the way you are
You can't cover it up
Can't cover it up

Find a _{safe place}, ^{brace yourself},bite your lips
I'm sending your fingernails and empty bottles you've sipped
Back to your family cause I know you will be missed
So you can find a safe place, brace yourself

They call kids like us vicious and carved out of stone
But for what we've become, we just feel more alone
Always weigh what I've got against what I left
So progress report: I am missing you to death

Douse yourself in cheap perfume it's
So fitting, so fitting of the way you are
You can't cover it up
Can't cover it up

Through it all
No one knew
Feeling borrowed
Always blue
Through it all
No one knew
Feeling borrowed
Always blue
Through it all
No one knew
Feeling borrowed
Always blue
Through it all
No one knew
Feeling borrowed
Always you.

I found a ^cure to growing older
I found a ^cure to growing older

Douse yourself in cheap perfume it's
So fitting, so fitting of the way you are
You can't cover it up
Can't cover it up

uhm yeaaaahh...im gonna need you to come in on saturdayy

yeaaaahhhhh...
[[officespace]]

anyway bored.
we went to the vietnamese restaurant
and i have a vietnamese song stuck in my head


maddd annoying
cuz idk the song
or the words
ugh.

in other newssss...

today is mom & vince's 11month anniversary

I KNOW! can you believe it!?


jeez. it feels like nothing


and its also the 3year anniversary of the day daddy moved to Florida


things go too fast.

i absolutely love how...

the second i hit publish post my uncle shows up
like a knight in shining....honda?


lol anyywayy
today was fun
finished my book in the library
so yeah
oh i have to remember to get that thing for Justin tomorrow
:D

i wont forget
i wrote it on my hand :]


anyywayy
i have this excitement in me for the next school year
its gonna be amazing


i can feel it in my bones.

Im Late! Im Late!

For a very important date!

no time to say "hello"
GOODBYE!

IM LATE!
IM LATE!
IM LATE!



[srsly. im late for disney choir...oh no! i hope crafty doesnt get mad at me :( ]

i just filled out a myspace survey

and one of the questions was:
Have you ever attempted suicide?

response:
im only gonna answer this once. after this im never answering it again. truthfully. i thought about it really hard. and some other shit. but no. i couldnt bring myself to do it.


i never want to answer it again.
idky i felt i had to respond to that question.
but i did.
i couldnt leave it blank. and i couldnt lie.
so yeah.

:(
*sigh* oh well.

ive never seen a heart i couldnt break.

mmmm hmmm
you betcha. :]

so yeah
again sorry its been a while since my last post
ive been so tired latelyyy

but yeah

lifes been good lately

:D
i have some REP work to do
and i have Disney Choir this week [O.o its sooo earlyyy in the morning]

nothing really all that exciting to talk about
:D im so excited to be singing at the wedding next year!!!

majorrr pressure though cuz im going to be singing instead of them playing the wedding march
so its like really really w00sh! [haha idk how to describe]


but yeah
all is well :D

d00d

im home :D

We're High Fashion

We're Last Chances.

mmmm hmmm.
i have work today
and idk. it was sad to see how little ive written.

annnddd
i have to gooo now.

:(
ttyl :]