my nightmare pt 2

so yeah anyway
that dream scared the crap outta me
all of my worst nightmares lately
have been school shootings

i had a dream a few months ago
and im in a room (which looks like the one mom and i rented in maryland)
and im reading Time magazine and the front cover has a picture of someone but theyre covered up in like a blanket
the caption says "if you know this person do not go to school tomorrow"
i open to the title story and i see a picture
of someones eyes.

the eyes were the scariest because they were so afraid. too much fear and anger and rage.
the story says that this person will be killed or was killed in a school shooting that takes place tomorrow
and it scares me

i look at the picture again
and i realize they are my eyes

and i woke up
to this day i still get scared when i think of that picture.

my nightmare

i just had the CRAZIEST dream ever!!!!

holy crapppppp
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okay so it starts off as like a family gathering in the living room of my grandparents house
all of a sudden we see a package that has been delivered to us
so my uncle n opens it.
and inside is


A ROOMBA!
(lol we just got ours last week...*shifty eyes*)

so anyway all of a sudden it turns on and spins and starts cleaning around right
but somethings wrong...i sense it so i slowly get up and back away towards the kitchen
lo and behold as soon as i turn around it starts spinning and shooting everything
so i run to the door to the basement (which has a separate back door) and i wait by the stairs
and i can hear the roomba coming to get me....and when it realizes it cant get to me cuz of the stairs it goes back to the living room
and i can hear it self destruct


so i come out and i run upstairs to my room...
after alls clear i come out go to the bathroom where i see my grandmother and she tells me that it was from this girl that my uncle f. is dating and shes trying to get some form of revenge
after that i went back downstairs

thats when i see a second package
its another roomba but its orange and it starts blowing things up
i got scared so i hid in the basement again and as soon as i saw it leave i ran out the back door and crawled underneath the window of the laundry room.

i see my tia n. and i ask her if i could take her car. she hands me the keys and i tell her to get in.
we drive (or rather i drive but im sitting in the backseat) around the town and somehow i end up at school.
im in the gym and i play a little soccer with some guys until i see people huddled around a dead roomba and theyre cleaning out the hair from it and my teacher starts talking bout "if you know who it is tell some one just say those two or three little words and youll never be afraid again"
and then i turn and my friend holly is there and she says "yeah sam!" who is sitting right behind me
and holly starts saying "it was sam it was sam!"
i look at her and i say "no it cant be her...shes not smart enough to do something as complex as this"
thats when i hear it
a cricket
in the middle of the day chirping...i look up and turn away from the gym teacher thats talking and i look towards the back door and theres a guy in a grey skeleton mask
i dont realize it until my eyes focus and i see the mask...
i hide behind the teacher and tell her "there he is"
people start to panic and run out the door hes crouching in front of...(idiots...he turns towards the door and finds them kills them)
i took the opportunity to run out the other door opposite him that leads to the hallway
i see him start to run after me and i hear shots being fired
i do not look back
i run towards the emergency exit door
and i turn around and then


i wake up

Thank You For Smoking

Great movie

thought id share


i love how he speaks<3333

brown and out, green and serene

bout to watch a movie with my mom

i miss my ipod mini (which was stolen like 2wks ago...that was a sad day)
i have every possible song in my head right now
its kinda annoying


bleh

i feel soo hyper

=|
i was supposed to see my friend in concert today...i feel bad that i couldnt go

oh well...i hope he understands =|

no one comments me on this thing
does anyone ever read this but me?
how sad =|

[SENDMESOMELOVE(onthedancefloor)]

bah humbug

how shortlived

today's weather=slightly emo

majorly windy
and i love it

[youlooksogoodinblue]

so yeah...bleh
borreedddd
sorry i havent written in a while

=D good day
pretty good week
soy feliz. period.

[likeanoceanhugstheshore holdmecloseswaymemore]

i love that songggg
=D

[tellmethatwebelongtogether]

im in that kind of loveeverythingadmireallhatenothing mood.
dont you love it when that happens
though i still have a small feeling of dread again
but w/e doesnt matter


for now and for once in a long time

i am happy

and thats enough for me =D

"i cant talk my way outta anything...isnt it tragic?"

im mute
i dont want to talk anymore.
everytime i say something its taken wrong
or not heard.

so fuck it.
i just dont wanna talk

so much for bonding time

asdfghjkl;
grrr.
sometimes im happy i can write
if not i swear
i wouldnt be able to stand myself
or anyone else for that matter
=/

what a turn this day has taken!

change is good?

so yeah its me again
changed my template once more
i think this one looks a bit better

[ha-ha my neighbor's chasing their dog through our backyard]

im in one of my explosive moods.

feel my heart ticking away like a clock
feel my heart ticking away like a clock
my heart keeps ticking away
to an alarming end
TO AN ALARMINGGGGG END!!!!
[gotta love Dropping Daylight]

so yeah i feel like i can just go off on anyone at any moment
i dont want to.
eh.
asdfghjkl;'
still cold. but i dont wanna close my window. i like hearing the birds.
somethings should stay happy. [like me?]

dont get me wrong i am happy =D
happiest i've been in a while
but idk.
nvm.
end there before they call in the white coats.

this is me. i think?

bleh ever feel like your you but not?
like you sorta watch your life pass but its not you thats living
ive felt like that
not really the best feeling in the world

sometimes i wonder...
will anyone remember me in 500 years?
and if so...how?
would i be a hero. or a failure?
an amazing writer? or a struggling fool.

i wanna be remembered. i wanna leave something to make you remember me
will this work?

i hope so.

if not. then what will become of me?
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enough of that.
boring day
nothing much to really ponder over.
i have a slight dread feeling.

you know when it feels like you wanna cry
but you dont.

you wanna scream
but you cant.


bleh how annoying =[
its cold in here

it rained last night.
thunder
lightning
the works.
<3i love the rain
im not sure why
i just do

i kinda dont wanna stop writing right now
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back to first topic [500 years] (i tend to jump around with my thoughts...try to keep up)

stared at the ring my dad bought for me in the museum. its simple and it has an ankh on it (egyptian symbol of eternal life). i had the urge to wear it today
im not sure why
OMG IS IT A SIGN!?
ha-ha just kidding.

bleh what am i saying?
w/e im gonna stop now before i completely lose my mind