and the reason.....

is that i dont think im ready for what will happen if he does read it
its gonna be really awkward i know

jeez.
im like the queen of awkwardness


:]
but anyway
i only posted it to let it out in words.
and maybe someday
when i look through all these pages and i read them.
i'll smile and say

"wow was i a loserr"
[[ hahahaha... you were waiting for something witty weren't you ]]