okay so

its most def. crazy that its already 2008
and that its been an entire year since we fought

jeez how crazy is that
but w/e
the point is that
im happy they're together
because i have never seen him so happy in the times that ive known him
and now

shes perfect for him and i get that
and its nice because i dont love him anymore
and it doesnt hurt

:]
i've always been genuinely happy for them
[[ though i dont think they know that ]]
but its true.

and although i know i should say this to them.
its really not my place.

i dont like trying to avoid him
but i know that if we are friends again
that when he graduates this year

im gonna be sad. :[
and i dont want to be sad.
because

im actually very very happy now :]
and lately ive been having the most amazing time of my life

2007 was a great healing year
and 2008 is just :]

i mean seriously 2 weddings so far
my godmother's parents anniversary wedding
and my mom and vincents :]

[[ im performing at both too ]]

well anyway
im now gonna post an obnoxious amount of blogs when i get home from rehearsal
[[ play=funny girl. me=ensemble/mrs strakosh understudy ]]

because as much as i want him to read what i wrote.
i really really dont.