Right now this town is for the taking...

Soooo much change is approaching

at rapid speeds.

And for once...

im not afraid.

i think that ive finally accepted everything.

and its such an amazing feeling.

i feel like life has been throwing me into a river

and all this time ive been trying to swim upstream

away from a cascade

but now im done fighting.

and i find that the drop in this waterfall isnt that far.

and that the river

flows into a vast and beautiful ocean.

I'm so excited for the new life ahead of me.

I quit my job and im thinking of work/study programs.

I move out in less than a month.

Im so excited !!

Im going to finally live in the city again.

I've missed it so much.

Dont get me wrong.

iloveithere

what can i say?

This city is contagious

but i miss being in the city.

i miss the chaos

i miss the sirens and the loud people

i miss the busy streets

I cant be in a suburb too long.

not yet.

suburbs are for starting families.

im not ready for that.

and i wont be for a while

cities?

they start lives.

they start things new.

I need that.

I love finding old stuff :)

So i found my mom's old journal when she was a sophomore in highschool.

we are so much alike. :p

in our thoughts and writing styles

i also found a poem i wrote my father that i thought i lost.

Mirrors

[[ 10.30.2006 ]]

He picked up his baby girl

looked her in the eyes

and said "Bebita remember

I am your mirror

and everything you are

so take all my good

and save me the bad

look at me as everything

you wouldnt want to be."

he rocked her in his arms

as his daughter fell asleep.

Years passed

and my how she grew!

into this woman standing in front of you

and she'll look at you and say

"Daddy I am your mirror

and you are mine

so take all the good

and throw the bad

because I am everything you are

and everything you can be."

Look around your world pretty baby, Is it everything you hoped it'd be?

Wrong guy.

Wrong situation.

Right time,

To roll to me.

[Roll to Me -Del Amitri]

this song makes me sooo happy

lol

ive been trying to figure out who sings it

for monthsss :p

:D

that and its such a goooddd soonnggg !!

i love that i have such a random interest in music :p

hmm. so i had a good day today :)

actually

ive had a great weekend too!

Grad party on sunday

went really well :]

soooo much funnn :p

and today i spent some time with my sister.

which i loved.

im glad i have her :)

but dont tell her that ;p

We both play with fire...

...but for some reason,

i seem to be the only one getting burned.

so what do i do?

do i keep the fire burning

in the hopes that it warms up to me

but run the risk of another 3rd degree?

or

do i let the fire die out

and find another place of warmth?

oh how ive drowned

will i ever reach the surface?

do i want to?

i treaded water.

i began to drown.

shall i swim to shore?

smokey the bear says:

only you can help prevent forest fires.

I've only got forever and forever's just fine...

[Vegas Skies- The Cab]

hmmm...

iloveTheCab.

im itchin to see them again...

too bad i have work on the day theyre in the area :/

maybe i can change that :]

hmmmmm....

so today

[well yesterday i guess now...]

has been...

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haha.

its been icky.

i overthink things wayyy too much.

i should stop that.

but oh well.

its just part of my charmmm

ha ha.

you know whats funny?

i had a whole bunch of things to say...

and now.

i forgot them :[

no.

i lie.

i just dont wanna tell :x

not like anyone reads this anyway so i guess it wouldnt matter.

hmmm. my songs are great.

i just need to compose music for them >.<

hmmm...

ive never tried putting music to my songs

maybe i should start

im really tired right now.

but at the same time. im too antsy to sleep

im kinda anxious about sleeping right now

i have a feeling im gonna have some weird dreams

like yesterday when i wrote that one song?

i felt like i couldnt breathe.

and i couldnt figure out why

until later...

like i said before.

instincts are good to listen to.

so im avoiding sleep.

even though i really want it.

everytime you go to sleep at night, i wonder what you hide behind closed eyes. what else could you be keeping from me?[Save Your Breath-HTL]