We drove into a great sunset...and lived a life with no regrets.

[["Don't Wait" -Hit the Lights]]

so i guess i've decided that i want a lot for my life

in every aspect i know what i would like to have

If you havent already realized

i want [[more than anything]] to be a writer

i want to go to the University of Rochester.

i want to live a full life

i would die if i had a nine to five job

i cant sit in an office all day

i want so much for myself

i want happiness with someone i know i can spend the rest of my life with

[[which bytheway is kind of a stretch right now]]

ive been told that what i want isnt possible

isnt logical

isnt practical

isnt safe

isnt even close to right

isnt isnt isnt

but i dont want to be

logical

practical

safe

or right.

Its not IMPOSSIBLE

its I'M POSSIBLE.

i want to do whatever i think will make me happy

i want to travel

i want to do whatever it takes to find myself even more than i have.

and i honestly dont think i can have a "traditional job"

can you imagine me in a cubicle all day?

i would die of boredom

i used to want to be a lawyer or a marketing exec

but then one morning i woke up and realized that if i did any of that

i would be miserable

i would be 30 years old

hopped up on zoloft and absolutely hating my life.

hating my job

and i dont think i could be that way.

i would regret not writing

and i would miss it dearly

and most people honestly dont understand that

i write because it keeps me alive.

its kept me alive this long

it makes me feel whole.

and if its the only way i can find that

then goddammit ill do it.

im scared.

i wont lie.

im fucking terrified

but as the song goes

I cant wait for the sun to rise

I'll never know until i try

We make mistakes

And learn through time

We all grow old

We live.

We die.

We live.

[[ "Dont Wait" -Hit the Lights]]