i should be terrified
hahaha
jayykayy
[[or maybe not? idk. ask Freud]]
HAPPY 200th Post!!!
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hahaha
jayykayy
[[or maybe not? idk. ask Freud]]
HAPPY 200th Post!!!
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anyway
as for today?
it felt like any other day
but omg
im a SENIOR NOW!!!
thats sooo scarryyy
you have no idea
i didnt go to graduation
on the one hand i did want to
but on the other
i really didnt
those people i was close to
i said my goodbyes
but i cant even imagine that in one year
that will be me
haha
i just hope i remember to take my diploma after i shake the principal's hand
[[ family insider. you wouldnt understand ]]
my God
where do i go from here?
my dad has been trying hard to convince me out of my English Major
and i really dont know what to do
i mean.
yeah im good at Marketing and Business [[i already found that out this year]]
but there are so many other things i want to do
and it hurts to think that my dad doesnt want me to do what i want most
i know he only has my financial security in mind
but writing is my passion
and i dont want to take it away
or have it taken from me.
but i also dont want to let him down
i know that he doesnt want me to live the life he did
but im not
and i know that English is what i want to do
ive spent all my life trying to figure out who i am
and this is it.
writing is who i am.
i cant change that
i know in the end my dad wont care what i choose
because i know at the end of the day he'll still love me
so why do i keep telling him ill change my major?
i never thought id have this problem
*Sigh*
i cant give up what i want most in this world
and i cannot sit in a cubicle for the rest of my life
nor can i do the things that my aunt does
hm.
i just hope that
whatever i do
i dont fail at it.
i want to be a successful writer.
and i know i can be
but still...
what if..
i dont make it with my books?
then what?
and i also want to take some form of music/theater
am i spreading myself to thin?
too far across the board?
w/e
i dont wanna think about this anymore
it makes my heart hurt
its the first day of summer
lets make this count
as for today?
it felt like any other day
but omg
im a SENIOR NOW!!!
thats sooo scarryyy
you have no idea
i didnt go to graduation
on the one hand i did want to
but on the other
i really didnt
those people i was close to
i said my goodbyes
but i cant even imagine that in one year
that will be me
haha
i just hope i remember to take my diploma after i shake the principal's hand
[[ family insider. you wouldnt understand ]]
my God
where do i go from here?
my dad has been trying hard to convince me out of my English Major
and i really dont know what to do
i mean.
yeah im good at Marketing and Business [[i already found that out this year]]
but there are so many other things i want to do
and it hurts to think that my dad doesnt want me to do what i want most
i know he only has my financial security in mind
but writing is my passion
and i dont want to take it away
or have it taken from me.
but i also dont want to let him down
i know that he doesnt want me to live the life he did
but im not
and i know that English is what i want to do
ive spent all my life trying to figure out who i am
and this is it.
writing is who i am.
i cant change that
i know in the end my dad wont care what i choose
because i know at the end of the day he'll still love me
so why do i keep telling him ill change my major?
i never thought id have this problem
*Sigh*
i cant give up what i want most in this world
and i cannot sit in a cubicle for the rest of my life
nor can i do the things that my aunt does
hm.
i just hope that
whatever i do
i dont fail at it.
i want to be a successful writer.
and i know i can be
but still...
what if..
i dont make it with my books?
then what?
and i also want to take some form of music/theater
am i spreading myself to thin?
too far across the board?
w/e
i dont wanna think about this anymore
it makes my heart hurt
its the first day of summer
lets make this count
Oh NINE
So FINE!!
So FINE!!
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