Dude...double you tee eff?!

what happened to saturday morning cartoons?!

srsly
1. teenaged mutant ninja turtles
-not as detailed
-they dont live in the sewer anymore

2. "The Legion of Superheroes"
-what the hell?!...
-okay see superfriends were good. justice league better. adventures of superman and batman really good. but come on!
-SUPERMAN IS SCRAWNY!!!

there are weird cartoon things
and srsly
this is just not cool

dude the joker has DREADS!?
wuh wuh huh wuh wuh wuh huh?!

whats with kids today
they dont understand computer glitches yet
like dude c'mon!

bring back like::
1. the original pokemon
2. Cardcaptors!
3. SAILOR MOON!
4. Tom And Jerry

etc...
OMG MADELINE!!!!

YAY....i havent seen that since like i was 7

haha

my last post was so whinyyy
XD

goodmorning bright & early sunshine

How are you today?!

lol
ughhhh
my ankle hurts cuz i twisted it yesterday
when we picked up Vince's daughter Danyelle
i was helping her down the stairs and

i fell!
lmao
it was funny except
my ankles been killing me
and my sides

bahhh anyway
busy day today

1. Danyelle's 8th gr. Grad Party
man i wish i can go back to my 8th grade party
2. Sammi-luv's sweet 16th<3
yay!

AHHH
I CUT MY HAIR YESTERDAY!
idk
i kinda love it
cuz the lady straightened it
and it was all pretty
and now im like:
ahhhh its soooo shortttt
shorter than i asked
:[
now i cant hit ppl with my hair
lol


and its all flippy
cuz i got side bangss

bahhh my ankle hurts like wut yo?!
bleh this is the earliest ive waken up
since school ended
idk wut to doooo
i have to be very very quiet
[im hunting rabbits :P]
lol Danyelle is still asleep
:/

my body hurtss
ack whens my godmother coming...
i want her to see my hair
[well she saw the picture but you know what i mean]

ahhh what shoes am i gonna wear
i cant wear my white and blue flats
thats what made me fall in the first place
and if i cant walk in flats
then how the fuck do they expect me
in HEELS!
lolz
but i love wearing heels
^_^

tutti fruitti oh rudy!

rofl

idk.
shhh im supposed to be asleep
lalala
im soo nocturnal
lately
i sleep at 3am
wake up at noon
ahhhh
its weird
lol

last weekend was pretty chill
went to Crystal Springs
with mom vince and noah
pretty cool
nice place
<33 the water
beat vince in a 50 freestyle
^_^

mmm hmm
but im outta shape
:[
oh wellz
i wish i had a pool
id be doing laps all day
^_^
that would be uber sooper mondo awesome breh!

lolz
idk

bahh im bored

The Godfather

is an amazing movie
srsly
i saw it for the first time today

[familyiseverything]

so yeah.
power.
money.
mobs.
family

Marlon Brando=♥
he was good as Mark Anthony then. he is amazing as Don Carleone.

theend.

i am not afraid to keep on living. i am not afraid to walk this world alone..

okay so thats kinda a lie.
lol
but its a damn good song ^_^

[Famous Last Words --My Chemical Romance]

too bad its been stuck in my head the whole fuckin day
and i barely know the song

lol

WARNING:: the following may not make sense

okay so i think that his mom secretly wants us together
which is kinda weird.
ive known this kid forever
and i mean i like him and all
but c'mon
if you see the look on her face
you know that she wants us to have secret love children
*shudder*

anyyyywayyyy enough about that
^_^ vampires

Die Young. Live Forever

A tribute to the Twilight Series<3

why?
because ilovethatbook

&&i kindasortawannabe
A VAMPIRE

i really should be folding that bigass pile of laundry

so yeah
toes are cold
but i hate socks
mmmm hmmm

anyway
plans to go to the carnival with laura
YAY!

cant wait
but for some reason
im kinda not feeling up to it
idky
but im sure once i get there ill be fine

^_^

video premiere for GCH: clothes off
good song<3
haha weird vid

lalalalalala
okay?
okay!

haha theres no food in the fridge
and im hungry
so here i go
on the quest to find food in the kitchen!
*cue ominous music*

and i think laura forgot she put me on hold
lol

boo!

so yeah
id like just once
for my mom to come home
and not yell at me immediately

maybe?
please?

i mean seriously
when did things go from
ehm.bee.eff.eff.
to like RAWR CATFIGHT!

i dont know
maybe its cuz im older
or maybe its cuz things are different
or maybe im different

i dont know
i want things back to normal
(if there is such a thing as normal)
bahhhhhh

i really really wanna cry right now
and i have no fucking reason to
ever have those moments?

im sure you dont
or hell maybe you do
who knows

yay vincents here -_-
i kinda dont wanna say hi to him right now
cuz im sure everything im about to say
will come out
absolutely and utterly
horrible
and of course taken completely outta context
*sigh*

i dont know if its just that im not used to having some sort of "father figure" around
or im not used to having to share my mom with said "father figure".
i mean
bah who am i kidding i dont know what i mean
i never know what i mean
i have a lump in my throat the size of alaska
just thought id share that teeny tiny tidbit of information with you


im not a puppet im a real boy

WHAT THE FUCK!?
FUCK THE WHAT?!
haha i just really wanted to type that
wow i really am weird

you know sometimes i wish my mom would be just a tiny bit curious
and actually read this
but i know she wont unless i tell her to
i mean ack i dunno
id like it for people to read this without me having to tell them to

cuz then maybe
just maybe
that difference that i wanted
that change i wanted to create
just.
might.
happen.


but anyway
i sound like a broken record dont i?
maybe i am
im like on one of those old school record players
im a really vintaged vinyl and im skipping
over
and
over
and
over
until finally
i
just
stop

then again maybe not



yep

may
be
not

in between watching OTH online

okay so
1. their graduation outfits=our chorus outfits lol
2. i love Karen for spitting at dan and saying what she did about lily and keith

and you probably have no idea what im talking about
but thats okay
cuz well isnt that what always happens anyway?
lol
^_^

hmmm. something to think about

okay so i have just discovered the wonderful world of...
PODCASTS!

lol srsly
like i downloaded them from the itunes store
but like theyre free and wut not
lol and its weird cuz like

okay ever watch one tree hill? like the tv show
well i love it
and theres this character named Peyton Sawyer
and shes really like awesome
or at least the portrayed character
you know what i mean?
and she has like a Podcast
that she does on most of the episodes
that you can download onto your ipod
and ive kinda downloaded all the ones that are audio
and theyre amazing

im not sure if its a script or if that how she really is
(hillarie burton the actress who plays peyton i mean)
but its so insightful
and like really good.

bahhh i dont know
thats weird right?
like listening to that stuff
but its really good and i really like listening to it
so yeah.
thought id share that with you

maybe i should create a podcast?
but then...how?
and would that be better than writing?
well of course not
cuz writing is safer.
it feels safer
at least to me
and it sometimes feels like im in some trance

where i can write down exactly how i feel
without being afraid to censor myself
or like make sure that what ever i say doesnt hurt anyone
it makes me feel free
in an odd sense
it probably doesnt make any sense to you
but it does to me
and isnt that why i write

haha why the hell did i just ask you that
how would you know why i write or not
you dont
so there!

uhm
what?!
i dunno im confusing myself

baaahhhhh
okay. so yeah


hooray for watching one tree hill online
^_^
hold on kay?

idk

okay so i love my nano
but idk
maybe i shoulda gotten a video like my mom said
then again i mean i dont need it

and besides i wrote my name on it in sharpie already
ahhh

no. im being stupid
and greedy
i dont need a video
and i love my nano fine

dont mind me

im being a selfish brat O.o

okay so watching montel right...

cuz that sylvia brown lady is there
and her long nails reminded me of the dream i had last night


where this creepy lady killed her baby
with her freakish nails
and she was telling me how it all happened

psssyyyyycccchhhhoooooo

and scary
cuz she was all creepy and wut not
scratching things with her large nails
mostly her baby though
it was really gross
blood everywhere
*shudder*


also my uncle wants me to work
and i kinda dont want to...
cuz i want one work free week
for this summer
bahhh

that sucks ass bananas

lmao i love dropping daylight<3

so yeah ive decided that winning at solitare is a skill you have to acquire through time
i think im getting there...lol
for some reason when my computer freezes if i play a game of solitare it just works
idky

well anyway
today was pretty much uneventful
(which really does suck ass bananas)

i really do hate it when my mom tells me i waste my time
watching stuff on youtube
or listening to music
i dont tell her shes wasting her time when shes planting things in the yard
or like when she listens to her anthony robbins crap

but whatever.
not my problem
so yeah

im pretty much bored.
it annoys me to think that no one reads this
but i guess it makes sense
people are more interested with like paris hilton in jail
and which celeb broke up and impregnated whom
no one really cares about the real people who have other shit going on

but then again why would they?
ah im just bitching. so dont mind me

tell me about you
oh wait
you cant
you dont exist
my bad

i like to write this as if i were talking to someone though
cuz thats just how i think
odd huh?
oh well

ever wish you could hear other people's thoughts?
i do
just so somethings can make some sense
but i guess we have to learn things on our own

i cant imagine driving
i cant imagine graduating
i cant imagine going to college and living on my own
i cant imagine growing up
or is it that i dont want to?

probably both.
yeah most likely both.

sometimes i wonder if people criticize me as much as i do myself?
i hope not
cuz that would kinda suck (ass bananas!)
ever have an insightful conversation with yourself?
(would that be a monologue? or a soliloquy?)
i do
obviously or i wouldnt be telling you about it
but yeah
then i argue with myself about like random shit
i tend to yell at myself to

lol why am i telling you this?

I dream of Petey <3

mmmm hmmmm
best dream ever
no its not one of those kinds of dreams
anyway here goes::
____________________
okay so it starts off on the way to the lincoln tunnel with my dad
and hes the one taking me to the concert [fall out boy of course]
anyyywayyyy

idk why but you know that looped road that leads into the tunnel
with the tolls at the bottom?
well it turned into a line for the show
the toll is the ticket stand
and the tunnel
is the stage
O.o

so because we have ez-pass (yeah i know cheezy) we can go all the way to the front
by the stage ^_^
so then my dad isnt my dad and it turns into the girl i originally went to the concert with before
and we're up front all happy and wutnot
but for some reason
im on stage and off to the side...like leaning against a wall
and i seee

Patrick warming up
Joe practicing his Trohmania
Andy drumming a great riff
and Pete staring at me (O.o)
and of course the same guard who pulled me outta my crowd surf
decides to kick me offstage
so i do and pete follows
(me= Vaaaat?! O.o)
and then he starts talking to me

Pw=hi im pete
am=yeah i know. im amanda! (^_^) can i get your autograph
pw= no
am= oh right cuz then you have to sign everyone elses and its not fair yadda yadda yadda
pw= actually i was kidding
am= oh. (leave it to me to be an idiot even in my dream!)
pw= what do you want me to sign
am=(thinks of her journal which she left at home; then tells him about it and her cd that she wanted him to sign and hands him a different notebook)

so then we start talking some more (and of course marisol is there....HA! now you cant tell me youve never been to a concert before or that i didnt take you....cuz boom! there you are chattin it up with petey and staring at patrick)
so anyway back to the point
we talk for wut seems like hours and next thing you know the show is done
and they leave and im walking with them
still talking to them (all of them now)
and we walk into this restaurant and we're about to order pizza

annnddddd


i wake up. o.O

i hate chain mail

like the whole
"you will die in 7days shit"

but you ever read the one about the smith sisters or whatever

thats fuckin scaryyyy

anyway gotta sleep moms yelling
again

whats this?!

<333
i love that sonnnggg
shhh im supposed to be asleep

lol
^_^
oh well no school tom. anyway

i got to hang out with mommy today
YAY! ^_^

it was fun

and like it used to be
and i was truly happy

i think im gonna try and sleep now

goodnightworld!

wow

read a few more old mail

wow was i pathetic

=|


lonnnnggg story
dont even ask

well thats enough of reading that stuff
its so stupid

anywayyyyy

im bored
im bored
im bored

^_^
you should comment this
it would make me
un-bored

lalalalalala
and id feel special<3

i wonder
how much did i really change this year?
cuz i know i did
but it doesnt feel like it at all
and yet it really does

does that make sense?
of course not

Last day of school blues and greys [and every other color you want]

okay so im currently talking to the senior who adopted me in my freshman year
why?
cuz she's pretty much AMAZING
and its always nice to talk to her
cuz im her stupid loud freshman
haha good times


i cant believe im gonna be a JUNIOR now
this is just so crazy
i went from being adopted by a senior
to adopting frosh
O.o
haha...how odd.
and its so creepy

well anyway
i got my ipod last night<3
so happy bout that
i really dont know what to do

so yeah today was pretty much the best day ever!
i was originally going to stay with my french teacher but since i was the only one left
she let me go
^_^
so i just left
and i found some friends

we walked to kennedy park
(chinese was still closed)
and so we hung out in the playground
anu and i went on the spinny thing
just like we did during that 8th grade fun day thing
and just like we did then
we got off feeling sick for hours
haha
after the park we walked
supposed to be shoprite
but we all separated
[it was bound to happen there were like 23 of us]
and anu, sammi, and i
went to get pizza
[anu bought me lunch ^_^
she said it was pay back for when we went to the movies
and she lost her ticket
so i bought her another one]
and we just chilled
eventually everyone ended up at the pizza place
and we were pretty loud


^_^
it was a good day
then sammi and anu walked me back to the school
so i can catch my bus home
3 people were on the bus
only 3
it was soooo weird
!

[&&at that moment i swear we were infinite]

its all just so crazy
bahhhh im gonna be a junior
im gonna graduate in 2years!?
ill make these next two years
incredible

shannon (5:38:39 PM): IT'S THE GOD DAMN KID

me (5:38:38 PM): hahahhahaha

me (5:38:41 PM): wow

me (5:38:48 PM): best thing ive heard all day

shannon (5:39:00 PM): i'm going to hell anyway

shannon (5:39:05 PM): i might as well enjoy the trip

it really is the best thing ive heard all day

<333
another reason why i love talking to her

cuz tonight everyone will remember us

i feel like writing alot today

maybe ill break the 5 post record from uhm the tenth?

^_^
yay
lalalala

hmmmm...
wut else happened today?
nothing really now that i think about


oh oh oh did i tell you
did i tell you

i should tell you
i should tell you
well here we go
now we knowwww...

I figured out how to play GOLDEN
on the pianooo
yay!
i love it
that song is amazing
it makes me happy
now all i need to learn are the chords used
in the background
and the intro
and im all set
^_^
yay yay yay!

feeling hyper
gonna sing
maybe practice some piano

we'll see

im gonna dance in the rain babyyy...
shower me with tears
and close those sad eyes
cuz tonight everyone will remember us

haha
wow
again
poetic
for me
^_^
damn im good

haha
i better go now before i get all egotistical

<333333333
byeloverss

you could be my punkrockprincess i could be your garagebandking<3

i love that song<333
current favorite

Punk Rock Princess [Something Corporate]

idky
i havent listened to it since my best friend anu downloaded it
when she slept over the night of my birthdayparty last year

but yeah

bahhh that algebra2 final was harder than i thought it would be
=(

oh wellz

getting my nano todayyyyy

YAY!!!! ^_^

sooo happy bout that...

this way i wont be completely bored when i stay in my french room with ellie tomorrow
im not going home early
cuz i dont have a ride
but its all good
i get to chillax with madame nanda and ellie
plus id be wayyyy too bored if i went home

anyyywayyy
i cant wait to go to walmart tonight
i did all my chores yesterday

listening to fall out boyyy
big surprise there
lol
i just love them<33333333333

im a stich awayyy from making it
and a scarrrr away from falling apart
blood cells pixelate and eyes dialate
cuz the way your pills it kills the mouths of all my friends
cut it loooosssseeee
watch you work the room
cut if looooosssseee
watch you work the room.

so yeah bahhh
boredom
i just love writing here
to you
idky
its like my journal y'know

im gonna publish that btw
^_^

but yeah
anyyywayyyyy
lalalallalala

i dont know what to write about
oh yeah i took my english final

it was fun
i love the essay topic i chose
about who was the true hero in Julius Caesar
first i outlined the criteria for what makes a true hero
(yay for mythology class with mr vanderbeek in freshman year)
and then i just listed what components make a good hero
i came up with the results that Brutus was more of a hero than Mark Anthony
personally i really liked the character of Mark Anthony at first
i thought that he was really loyal in the sense that he wanted revenge for Julius
i mean its what i woulda done
but i think he got to power hungry y'know?
so i tried Brutus who in my opinion was the bigger man
because at least all his motives were for what he thought was the betterment of Rome

well anywayy i liked Mark Anthony's Eulogy at Caesars funeral
i memorized it <333

Friends! Romans! Countrymen!
Lend me your ears!
I come to bury Caesar
not praise him
the evil that men do lives after them
the good are oft interred with their bones
so let it be with Caesar
the noble Brutus hath said that he were ambitious
if he were twas a grievous fault
and grievously hath Caesar pay
here under the leave of Brutus and the rest
come i speak at Caesar's funeral
for he was my friend faithful and just to me
but Brutus said he was ambitious
and Brutus is an honorable man
so are they all honorable men!
he hath brought many captives to Rome
whose ransom did the general coffers fill
Did this in Caesar seem ambitious
when the poor hath cried Caesar hath wept
Ambition should be made of sterner stuff!
Yet Brutus says he was ambitious
and Brutus is an honorable man!
You did see that on the Lupercal
i Thrice offered him a kingly crown
which he did refuse, Was that ambition?
Yet Brutus says he was ambitious
and sure, he is an honorable man
I speak not to disprove what Brutus spoke
But here i am to speak what i do know
You all did love him once, not without cause
What cause withholds you to mourn for him
O judgement thou art fled to brutish beasts!
and men have lost their reason
Bear with me
My heart is in the coffin there with Caesar
and i must pause til it come back to me

<333
im sooo sad though
i forgot like alot of it
so i had to reread it and copy off of my copy of it that i put on my wall
lol

=(
im gonna rememorize it
its one of those things that is good to have with you
<3
i love it

lalala

bahh
hes sleeping over again
=(


anyyywayyy

happy birthday mommy
and uncle nino!!

<3


today is a good day

Yay Law & Order SVU!!
^_^

&&on the cold wet dirt i cried

im going absolutely insane!
okay so remember how my iPod mini was stolen?

its been driving me crazy
cuz i really really loved that thing
i mean it was a birthday present to me from my uncle
on my 13th birthday
and it meant soo much to me

and so i spent all evening trying to find all the money i have stashed away
i found $200 cash (195=dollars 5=change)

and i need the $15 tax

and i cant stand it
cuz if you dont know this about me then you dont know me at all

1. i HATE asking people for anything
2. i HATE EVEN MORE asking for money
3. i know how hard you have to work to get what you want and i hate to just ask for it

i hate that i asked my mom to help me buy it
and it drives me crazy that i made this stupid deal to clean the whole house for it
not because i have to clean but because now shes gonna think that whatever i do i have an underlying motive for doing it
and i dont want that

i feel terrible enough as it is

plus on the selfish side

i hate that her boyfriend's sleeping over.
i mean i know that nothing happens and i know hes a great person
but my God it drives me crazy because i want to spend time with her like we used to
but i dont wanna get in the way
and i dont wanna hurt her
and i dont want her to feel like she has to choose between me and him
she doesnt
but i still feel awful

and tomorrow's her birthday
and i didnt get her anything
and i know that i threw her that party
but i still feel so ashamed to ask her for anything especially the $15
but im going crazy

i dont wanna tell her any of this
especially not in front of Vincent
and i hate that they make fun of how much i need this money
and how much i love the music that i do
[being fall out boy]
and i hate how they tease me all the time for it

but think about it
if i made fun of everything they stood for
id be
inconsiderate
disrespectful
ungrateful
ignorant
and many other big words that i hate


im being selfish
uggghh i really cant stand him being here now
i swear it drives me up a wall

bahhh
way to slam my door mom
and yours

asdfghjkl;'
qwertyuiop[\
zxcvbnm,./

i just went off on one of my good friends that ive known for like ever
and i feel terrible
i just sorta
pissed off at him
=(
sorry georgeyporgey<3

ahhhhh
im such a fucking bitch!
i really do feel terrible
and my mom is telling me to sleep
but i cant sleep now
not when i feel this bad

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

garb!
blurrrslnaifgen
aoiheabg
and whyyy are you online
and whyyy all of a sudden you wanna be friends
and whyyy now
why why why why why

what the hell is the matter with the fucking people in this world
i mean i know im not great
and i know im not perfect either
but sometimes
people just piss me the fuck off

askehaoignea
whats also bugging me is that i know at some point you'd probably read this
[or maybe not w/e]
then id have something else
to feel absolutely horrible about

i cant win can i
bah!


and i have finals tomorrow
my bio exam
whoopee
i have no idea what im gonna do for that
im not at all ready
and its just another reason for miss bill to bitch
but at least after tomorrow i wont ever have to see her or hear her again

wow thats harsh

at least its raining
really hard
and that makes me somewhat happy
happier than ive been

i should really go to sleep now
i dont want to
but i should
or im gonna
majorly regret it tomorrow

goodnightblueskiesandworldsofgrey
goodnighttothememoriesthatwontfadeaway
goodnighttothemoonandforwishingonstars
goodnightandiloveyou
fromthebottomofmyhallowhardenedheart

[wow i should make that a song]

IRONY

thought id share the irony of listening to careless whisper while reading old messages from certain people

hahahahhahahahaa

tonight the music seems so loud
i wish that we could lose this crowd
maybe its better this way
we'dhurteachotherwiththethingswewanttosay
we could've been so good together
we could've danced this dance forever
but now whos gonna dance with me
pleeeaaassseee stay

i used to love that song when i was like 10 and id sing that part all day
hahahahaha

wow...
irony in its truest form

hahahahahahahahhahahahahaha

thought id share that with the world

i know youre only blinding to keep back what the clouds are hiding

The Carpal Tunnel of Love [Fall Out Boy]

We take sour sips from life's lush lips
And we shake, shake, shake the hips in relationships
Stomp out this disaster town
You'll put your eyes to the sun and say, "I know you're only blinding to keep back what the clouds are hiding."
And we might've started singing just a little soon
We're throwing stones at a glass moon
Whoa oh, we're so miserable and stunning
Whoa oh, love songs for the genuinely cunning, whoa-oh
We keep the beat with your blistered feet
And we bullet the words at the mockingbirds singing
Slept through the weekend and dreaming
Of sinking with the melody off the cliffs of eternity
Got postcards from my former selves saying: "How've you been?"
We might've said goodbyes just a little soon
(Stomp out this disaster town)
Robbing lips, kissing banks under this moon
Whoa oh, we're so miserable and stunning
Whoa oh, love songs for the genuinely cunning
Whoa oh, we're so miserable and stunning
Whoa oh, love songs for the genuinely cunning, ohh…
It was ice cream headaches and sweet avalanche
When the pearls in our shells got up to dance
You call me a bad tipper of the cradle
But I'm just tired yawns for fawns on hunter's lawns
We're the has-beens of husbands
Sharpening the knives of young wives
Take two years and call me when you're better Take tears of mine, find yourself wetter
Whoa oh, we're so miserable and stunning
Whoa oh, love songs for the genuinely cunning
Whoa oh, we're so miserable and stunning
Whoa oh, love songs for the genuinely cunning

i just love that song so i thought id share it with you<3

i love to write lyrics of songs i love in random things
[if you havent noticed that yet your pretty much blind or illiterate]
sorry to sound "harsh" ha ha

anyway i feel like writing today
but i dont know what i wanna write
so im just gonna write whatever comes to mind

i mean dont get me wrong i miss you and all but shouldnt i be more careful?

oops one of those things you just dont wanna hear?
ha ha
im so sorry...but not really
lalalala hmmmmm hey wait a second.

i just realized no one comments me so no one reads this :(
oh well haha

not that it should matter much
so much for a lasting imprint

ooohhh do i detect bitterness in me i think i do

oh no!
lalalala

hmmmm....
maybe i shouldnt write whats on my mind right now

might cause some trouble

call in the white coats again! shes crazy

i detect some dark depressing thoughts in the making
oohhhh
better stop now before someone gets hurt

first rule about fight club
dont talk about fight club
first rule abut project mayhem
dont ask questions
and finally:
self destruction maybe the answer
you met me at a weird time in my life

bababa
its weird what you decide to remember in times like these
hahaha...i wasnt even paying attention to that movie
it was actually pretty good though...weird but really good

we took a back road were gonna look at the stars

vince is here fixing my door...
i shall supervise
lol

listening to the killers now<3333
luff right thurr
my eye itches
thought id share

[blindingbindingforgottenforgivenlostlooselove.]

sound familiar?
ha!
wow how odd...
i havent heard this song in so long
i never really missed it until now

Take Me Out of the Dark
-Gary Valenciano

blah blah
i have so much to say to you
but nothing do verbalize

&&i saw God cry in the reflection of my enemies

&&all the lovers with no time for me
&&all of the mothers raise their babies to stay away from me
&&pray they dont come up to me

im in and odd mood
everythings great and all
but idk...

ive been scared alot lately
of nothing
or rather things you would think is nothing
listening to random music

im cold but not really
[spread lies like these]
so yeah...


time to be cryptic.
spread out into nothing and searching for everything in me

wow that sounded really emo
hahaha...i just typed whatever came to mind first
i have a very emo mind
hahahahah

[the only thing i havent done yet is die and its me and my plus one in the afterlife]

i dont know
just felt like quoting things
so yeah.

first day of finals today
borrrinnnggg

first final: how to sleep in study hall for 2 hrs without cramping up or snoring (ha ha)
i think i passed that one
second final: concert choir
^_^ i think i really did well on that one

this world seems like some groggy dreamland today
its all so weird
3daysleft
and then the summertime
what will i do this summer

its one of those nothingwilleverbethesameagain moments
yeah
one of thossseeeee...

im listening to luther vandross
why?
cuz i can
lol

[if he could only read her mind she'd say:
buy me a rose
call me from work
open a door for me what would it hurt
show me you love me by the look in your eyes
these are the little things i need most in my life]

i love that song<3
*sigh*
anywayyyzzzz....
hahaha yeah gary valenciano
<333
right after luther vandross

niccceeeee
anyway...
im not making any sense am i?
oh well
haha

I DONT CARE!

:P

feeling a bit accomplished
why?
i have no fucking clue
hahaha
oh wells...its such a nice day outtt

ever have those moments
where you just hit that perfect high note...
mmmm hmmm
one of thoseeee<3

[l1k3 z0mq! n0 waiiz!]

its already the end of the school year!
its crazzyyyy
im gonna be a junior now

its sooo scary!
i cant believe it

this year has been sooooo weird
friends
no friends
love
no love
crazy
more crazy
parrtttyyy
tears
fears
lies
alibis
stupid stuff
lots more stupid sutff

im gonna miss these seniors...not as much as i miss the class of 06 but you know what idk

i cant beLIEve it
last year::

[We were merely freshman]

this year::

[Sophomore Slump/Comeback of the Year]

i dont want this to end.
im sooo scared of whats to come

but most of all
as much as i thought i hated it here
i cant be anywhere else!

=|

[&&at that moment i swear. we were infinite]

"wake me up before you go go.."

good news!
my aunt is in labor!!!
=D
(pics soon?)

and and and
its my brother's 6th birthday tomorrow!!!
=D

but but but
its also the honda civic tour tomorrow
and i forgot to buy tickets
so i wont get to see fall out boy for a while
*sigh* i really wanted to go

oh wellzzz


YAY FOR NEW BABIES!

this is me and my semi new glasses...thought i could use una pictura here! =D