boo!

so yeah
id like just once
for my mom to come home
and not yell at me immediately

maybe?
please?

i mean seriously
when did things go from
ehm.bee.eff.eff.
to like RAWR CATFIGHT!

i dont know
maybe its cuz im older
or maybe its cuz things are different
or maybe im different

i dont know
i want things back to normal
(if there is such a thing as normal)
bahhhhhh

i really really wanna cry right now
and i have no fucking reason to
ever have those moments?

im sure you dont
or hell maybe you do
who knows

yay vincents here -_-
i kinda dont wanna say hi to him right now
cuz im sure everything im about to say
will come out
absolutely and utterly
horrible
and of course taken completely outta context
*sigh*

i dont know if its just that im not used to having some sort of "father figure" around
or im not used to having to share my mom with said "father figure".
i mean
bah who am i kidding i dont know what i mean
i never know what i mean
i have a lump in my throat the size of alaska
just thought id share that teeny tiny tidbit of information with you


im not a puppet im a real boy

WHAT THE FUCK!?
FUCK THE WHAT?!
haha i just really wanted to type that
wow i really am weird

you know sometimes i wish my mom would be just a tiny bit curious
and actually read this
but i know she wont unless i tell her to
i mean ack i dunno
id like it for people to read this without me having to tell them to

cuz then maybe
just maybe
that difference that i wanted
that change i wanted to create
just.
might.
happen.


but anyway
i sound like a broken record dont i?
maybe i am
im like on one of those old school record players
im a really vintaged vinyl and im skipping
over
and
over
and
over
until finally
i
just
stop

then again maybe not



yep

may
be
not