TODAY IS OFFICIALLY THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE!!!!
I FOUND MY IPOD MINI!!!! :D
AKLDJAKLJFLKDASHKLJGALKDJFKAJLKD
YAYYYYYYY
YOU SHOULDA SEEN HOW HIGH I JUMPED WHEN I FOUND IT
[[i got mad hops son]]
:D
asdfghjkl;
:D
but now.
what do i do with it?
i mean of course im gonna keep it.
duh
but what about my nano
ive learned to love it too.
asdfghjkl;
i think ill give my nano to my mom
but see the thing is
all the stuff i have on it
cant go to my mini.
:(
and i might want to upgrade it.
oh no!
what to do?!
Thursday, December 20, 2007
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
Monday, November 19, 2007
No Me Ames.
Stolen from Jordanna who stole this from JOey who stole it from Milady who stole it from Sam..who doesnt hate me?
1. Name?
Amanda!
2. Okay, but what does your best friend call you?
Martinez.
3. Have you ever kissed someone with braces?
nope.
4. Who is the fourth received call on your call log?
Grandma
5. If you could change your eye color what would it be?
i wouldnt
6. What is the wallpaper on your phone?
both are Julius :D
7. How many pillows on your bed?
4. but i use two.
8. Who was the last text message you sent to?
Marketing?
9. Is there something you can't stop thinking about?
yeah well.
i wish i knew how to save a life. :(
10. What was the best thing that happened to you this year?
ajlkfjakldj
sooo many things :D
this was just an amazing year!
11. Do any of your friends annoy you?
a few. but i love them anyway
*cough* sammihess *cough*
12. Who/what is the fourth person on your contact list?
Allycatt :D
13. When was the last time you cried from laughing so hard?
the other day
14. What school did you attend in elementary?
Peterstown #3(k-2nd)
Mravalag #21 (3rd)
Halloran #22 (4th-6th)
mhm
15 ..?
youre so eloquent when you ignore me.
16. Who was the last person that made you laugh?
oh so many
17...?
and the when you forget everything you've ever said.
18. Who do you make fun of the most?
you.
19. What's the longest you've ever talked on the phone?
all night. hahaha. it was such a random conversation.
20. How many 20 dollar bills do you have on you right now?
zero
21. Have you seen your best friend cry?
yes :(
22. Where did you last go out to eat?
erm. idk
23. Do you dance in the car?
mhm
24. What do you think of hunting and fishing?
i dont like hunting
fishing is fun :D
25...?
stop promising shit.
26. What is a noise that you cannot stand?
vacuums
hairdryers
and those fan thingys on top of the stove.
27. Does your mom vacuum early in the morning, when you're sleeping?
she did once. annoyinnggggg....
28. Are your parents in love?
yeah. but not with each other.
29...?
and telling me what i want to hear
30. Where did you get your last bruise?
adkjflajf. i never know when i get my bruises. they just appear and im like "hey look at that!"
31. Would you rather sleep at a friend's or have them over?
i dont caree
32. Who is in your house right now?
me.
33. Have you ever thought you were gonna die?
nah
34. How do you like your steak?
medium rare
35. What do you smell like right now?
idk.
36. Do you have a hard time admitting you're wrong?
nope
37. Who was the last person you held hands with?
uhm. idk.
38. What shoes did you wear today?
sneaks
39. What makes you lose your appetite?
your face!.
lol :D
40. What color is your laundry basket?
uhm. brown.
41. Does your mom make you wear a winter coat?
mhm.
42. Does it contain fur?
nope.
43. Do you own any Hollister polos?
nope.
44. Do you think those stores are too expensive?
mhm.
45. Where do you shop the most for clothes?
kohls and shit.
46. Ever shop at a thrift store?
nah.
47. What‘s your favorite piece of clothing?
hoodies XD
i love them. theyre soooo warm
48. Can you go on MySpace from school or work?
nahh
49. Do your parents have a MySpace account?
mhm.
both of them
and my stepdad too.
50. Have your parents seen your MySpace page?
yeah.
both of them
and my stepdad too.
51. Whats your favorite season?
autumn :D
52. Whats your favorite number?
22
53. Do you get along with your parents?
mhm.
54. What are you listening to?
Si te vas :D
55. What are your favorite color(s)?
blue
grey
red
and black (even though thats technically a shade)<3
56...?
because at the end of the day
57. Have you ever been in love?
yes.
58. Have you ever thought that your life was so bad you just wanted to give up?
mhm. :(
it wasnt fun.
59. Do you have any tattoos?
nope.
60. How many piercings do you have?
384798372897892748732897.
mhm
true story. XD
im the only one who cares.
1. Name?
Amanda!
2. Okay, but what does your best friend call you?
Martinez.
3. Have you ever kissed someone with braces?
nope.
4. Who is the fourth received call on your call log?
Grandma
5. If you could change your eye color what would it be?
i wouldnt
6. What is the wallpaper on your phone?
both are Julius :D
7. How many pillows on your bed?
4. but i use two.
8. Who was the last text message you sent to?
Marketing?
9. Is there something you can't stop thinking about?
yeah well.
i wish i knew how to save a life. :(
10. What was the best thing that happened to you this year?
ajlkfjakldj
sooo many things :D
this was just an amazing year!
11. Do any of your friends annoy you?
a few. but i love them anyway
*cough* sammihess *cough*
12. Who/what is the fourth person on your contact list?
Allycatt :D
13. When was the last time you cried from laughing so hard?
the other day
14. What school did you attend in elementary?
Peterstown #3(k-2nd)
Mravalag #21 (3rd)
Halloran #22 (4th-6th)
mhm
15 ..?
youre so eloquent when you ignore me.
16. Who was the last person that made you laugh?
oh so many
17...?
and the when you forget everything you've ever said.
18. Who do you make fun of the most?
you.
19. What's the longest you've ever talked on the phone?
all night. hahaha. it was such a random conversation.
20. How many 20 dollar bills do you have on you right now?
zero
21. Have you seen your best friend cry?
yes :(
22. Where did you last go out to eat?
erm. idk
23. Do you dance in the car?
mhm
24. What do you think of hunting and fishing?
i dont like hunting
fishing is fun :D
25...?
stop promising shit.
26. What is a noise that you cannot stand?
vacuums
hairdryers
and those fan thingys on top of the stove.
27. Does your mom vacuum early in the morning, when you're sleeping?
she did once. annoyinnggggg....
28. Are your parents in love?
yeah. but not with each other.
29...?
and telling me what i want to hear
30. Where did you get your last bruise?
adkjflajf. i never know when i get my bruises. they just appear and im like "hey look at that!"
31. Would you rather sleep at a friend's or have them over?
i dont caree
32. Who is in your house right now?
me.
33. Have you ever thought you were gonna die?
nah
34. How do you like your steak?
medium rare
35. What do you smell like right now?
idk.
36. Do you have a hard time admitting you're wrong?
nope
37. Who was the last person you held hands with?
uhm. idk.
38. What shoes did you wear today?
sneaks
39. What makes you lose your appetite?
your face!.
lol :D
40. What color is your laundry basket?
uhm. brown.
41. Does your mom make you wear a winter coat?
mhm.
42. Does it contain fur?
nope.
43. Do you own any Hollister polos?
nope.
44. Do you think those stores are too expensive?
mhm.
45. Where do you shop the most for clothes?
kohls and shit.
46. Ever shop at a thrift store?
nah.
47. What‘s your favorite piece of clothing?
hoodies XD
i love them. theyre soooo warm
48. Can you go on MySpace from school or work?
nahh
49. Do your parents have a MySpace account?
mhm.
both of them
and my stepdad too.
50. Have your parents seen your MySpace page?
yeah.
both of them
and my stepdad too.
51. Whats your favorite season?
autumn :D
52. Whats your favorite number?
22
53. Do you get along with your parents?
mhm.
54. What are you listening to?
Si te vas :D
55. What are your favorite color(s)?
blue
grey
red
and black (even though thats technically a shade)<3
56...?
because at the end of the day
57. Have you ever been in love?
yes.
58. Have you ever thought that your life was so bad you just wanted to give up?
mhm. :(
it wasnt fun.
59. Do you have any tattoos?
nope.
60. How many piercings do you have?
384798372897892748732897.
mhm
true story. XD
im the only one who cares.
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
CHEWPHORIA!
i love this commercial!
and i just realized i could put that video here now
that makes me happy
mhm.
:D
its just an amazing commercial!!
and i just realized i could put that video here now
that makes me happy
mhm.
:D
its just an amazing commercial!!
ilove...
the metalic taste of blood.
is it like the iron in blood.
or just...
hmm
something to think about.
it just tastes really good.
dont you love the taste of blood?
seriously.
i wonder what makes it taste that way.
dont you love the taste of blood?
seriously.
i wonder what makes it taste that way.
is it like the iron in blood.
or just...
hmm
something to think about.
[[im every cliche...but i simply do it best]]
asdfghjkl
life has been so great lately.
and im just so excited for life.
and again i cannot apologize enough for not writing as much as i want
sometimesifeellikemymindmovestoofastformyhand.
and i lose all thoughts.
ohwell.
i havent even written anything else on my story :(
thats pretty sad.
its a good story too.
ill work on that later
:)
life has been so great lately.
and im just so excited for life.
and again i cannot apologize enough for not writing as much as i want
sometimesifeellikemymindmovestoofastformyhand.
and i lose all thoughts.
ohwell.
i havent even written anything else on my story :(
thats pretty sad.
its a good story too.
ill work on that later
:)
Friday, October 26, 2007
and and and
if you think yesterday was good
today was just as good
ive never been so hyped for peprally but
come on
im a fucking JUNIOR!
so yeah i was like crazyyyy
its just so great to be able to do that kinda thing
idk if im going to homecoming tonight
cuz its like raining really hard and as much as i love to watch football games
i dont think i wanna go to this one.
cuz like my friend isnt gonna be there and we were gonna meet for it
and on top of that im probably gonna be late so oh well.
haha
the one day i actually wanted to go to a Bomber game too
how sad.
oh welll
LETS GO RAHWAY!
ahhahahahahahahah
today was just as good
ive never been so hyped for peprally but
come on
im a fucking JUNIOR!
so yeah i was like crazyyyy
its just so great to be able to do that kinda thing
idk if im going to homecoming tonight
cuz its like raining really hard and as much as i love to watch football games
i dont think i wanna go to this one.
cuz like my friend isnt gonna be there and we were gonna meet for it
and on top of that im probably gonna be late so oh well.
haha
the one day i actually wanted to go to a Bomber game too
how sad.
oh welll
LETS GO RAHWAY!
ahhahahahahahahah
Oh muh goodness oh muh goodneeesssssss
Acoustic Night last night was soooo amazing
i wanted to blog about it earlier but i was just so tired.
first of i was at the school since 5 setting up for it
it started at 7pm
and the acts were amazing!
and it made me so happy to find it a full house!
i was so worried that like only 5 people were coming
but seriously!
a FULL HOUSE
i was so proud to be a part of Fedora Productions yesterday
it was just great
and i was so happy to see my friend John whom i hadnt seen in what feels like forever
it was so great for me to hang out with him again and to talk to him like we used to in the CCLC
kajdlksjlkajlk
it made me sooooo happy ^_^
yesterday was just like GREATNESS!
i wanted to blog about it earlier but i was just so tired.
first of i was at the school since 5 setting up for it
it started at 7pm
and the acts were amazing!
and it made me so happy to find it a full house!
i was so worried that like only 5 people were coming
but seriously!
a FULL HOUSE
i was so proud to be a part of Fedora Productions yesterday
it was just great
and i was so happy to see my friend John whom i hadnt seen in what feels like forever
it was so great for me to hang out with him again and to talk to him like we used to in the CCLC
kajdlksjlkajlk
it made me sooooo happy ^_^
yesterday was just like GREATNESS!
Thursday, October 18, 2007
i wanna be...
sailor mars for halloween :D
mhm so my cousin and i are gonna make our costumes im madd stoked brehhh
have you ever been alone in a crowded room...
while im here with you? oh dark blue dark blueee
so yeah
wow. my friend just completely shaved his head
lmaooo
im madd bored sonnn
anywayyy
lalalalala
HI!
im hyperr
wow. my friend just completely shaved his head
lmaooo
im madd bored sonnn
anywayyy
lalalalala
HI!
im hyperr
Monday, October 15, 2007
oh jeez...
im late.
i missed the bus this morning.
i havent done that in like...forever.
:(
bahhh.
im waiting for my mom to drop me off.
its kinda taking a while.
but thats okay.
so yeah...
its pretty cold outside.
i hope that we dont go out for gym today.
that would suck.
yeah. that would suck pretty bad.
ive been fighting the urge to not want to go to school.
and not wanting to get up in the morning
but its not as hard as i thought
for the most part...
this year has been pretty much just as good as i anticipated.
and to tell you the truth
i like this whole non-depression thing
it kinda works.
i missed the bus this morning.
i havent done that in like...forever.
:(
bahhh.
im waiting for my mom to drop me off.
its kinda taking a while.
but thats okay.
so yeah...
its pretty cold outside.
i hope that we dont go out for gym today.
that would suck.
yeah. that would suck pretty bad.
ive been fighting the urge to not want to go to school.
and not wanting to get up in the morning
but its not as hard as i thought
for the most part...
this year has been pretty much just as good as i anticipated.
and to tell you the truth
i like this whole non-depression thing
it kinda works.
Thursday, October 11, 2007
i was so bored
that i just went through all the emails in my inbox
and organized them into folders
there were like 895 msgs in my inbox
wow.
i need a life.
seriously
and organized them into folders
there were like 895 msgs in my inbox
wow.
i need a life.
seriously
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
i would have stayed up with you all night
had i known how to save a life.
seriously.
this kid.
he makes me sad.
he really does.
he can be so much more
and he decided to just waste his life.
it makes me so frustrated.
i really love him so much.
hes like a brother to me and he just
ughhhhh!
w/e
not my problem
im done with him.
i dont care anymore
seriously.
this kid.
he makes me sad.
he really does.
he can be so much more
and he decided to just waste his life.
it makes me so frustrated.
i really love him so much.
hes like a brother to me and he just
ughhhhh!
w/e
not my problem
im done with him.
i dont care anymore
Monday, October 8, 2007
i need better post titles..
seriously.
haha. im boreeedddddddddd
guess what!?
i got shot
twiceeeee
lol. flu and meningitis vaccinations
andandand
^_^ it made me happy
but i had to remove it when i took a shower :(
oh well.
haha. im boreeedddddddddd
guess what!?
i got shot
twiceeeee
lol. flu and meningitis vaccinations
andandand
[her hoo-haa is broken....lol it was on a commercial]
i got me an elmo band-aid.^_^ it made me happy
but i had to remove it when i took a shower :(
oh well.
Sunday, October 7, 2007
:(
i havent written in so long :(
but anyway.
my internet has been down lately
and i havent been online as much lately
i check my email. my myspace. and thats it.
im gonna try out for the swim team again.
pretty excited bout that.
whee!
but anyway.
my internet has been down lately
and i havent been online as much lately
i check my email. my myspace. and thats it.
im gonna try out for the swim team again.
pretty excited bout that.
whee!
Friday, September 14, 2007
Friday, September 7, 2007
w00t!!! 100 babyyyyyy!
lol
i really wanted to do this earlier but i fell asleep in the midst of some pretty boring pre calc
first day of school passed on like a dream
you know you spend so much being nervous
buying new things
wearing clothes you wont ever wear again
just to fit in for one day
then you get there and you realize
its all one big show
like a circus
we dont make any difference with what we wear
and how we wear it.
or what classes we're in
i mean who the fuck cares?!
at the end of the day
you are you.
no change in that.
and whoever wants to give you shit for that
is a complete and utter
WASTE OF LIFE!
anyywayy.
im gonna sleep now.
and just wake up early
for a lil before school blogging :D
goodnight
i really wanted to do this earlier but i fell asleep in the midst of some pretty boring pre calc
first day of school passed on like a dream
you know you spend so much being nervous
buying new things
wearing clothes you wont ever wear again
just to fit in for one day
then you get there and you realize
its all one big show
like a circus
we dont make any difference with what we wear
and how we wear it.
or what classes we're in
i mean who the fuck cares?!
at the end of the day
you are you.
no change in that.
and whoever wants to give you shit for that
is a complete and utter
WASTE OF LIFE!
anyywayy.
im gonna sleep now.
and just wake up early
for a lil before school blogging :D
goodnight
Wednesday, September 5, 2007
99 red balloons
splee!
i have decided that this year
is gonna be beyond amazing
everyone says that their junior year was the best ever
so same here!
i dont have many classes with Anu and i have no idea how Nikki's sched is
but i hope i see her soon :D
klajoinfei
im soooo excited!!!!
i have MAGAW!!!
:( but oh well. she can just kiss my natural tropical ass for all i care
i wont let her ruin my year
splee!
i cant wait!!!!
lalala
ohkayyy im gonna get my things ready and go to bed
i dont wanna be late for my first day of school
GOODNIGHT!
:D
i have decided that this year
is gonna be beyond amazing
everyone says that their junior year was the best ever
so same here!
i dont have many classes with Anu and i have no idea how Nikki's sched is
but i hope i see her soon :D
klajoinfei
im soooo excited!!!!
i have MAGAW!!!
:( but oh well. she can just kiss my natural tropical ass for all i care
i wont let her ruin my year
splee!
i cant wait!!!!
lalala
ohkayyy im gonna get my things ready and go to bed
i dont wanna be late for my first day of school
GOODNIGHT!
:D
i want
tomorrow to be my 100th post
:D
im so excited. can you believe that its 100 alreadyyyy :D
ajfiojae;nfoirhg thats amazing
w00t!
:D
im so excited. can you believe that its 100 alreadyyyy :D
ajfiojae;nfoirhg thats amazing
w00t!
Tomorrow
is the first day of my junior year in highschool
im scared.
and kinda not
it doesnt feel like tomorrow is the start of a new year.
wish me luck
[ps. 3morepoststil 100 :)]
im scared.
and kinda not
it doesnt feel like tomorrow is the start of a new year.
wish me luck
[ps. 3morepoststil 100 :)]
Hey Jude..
Dont make it bad
take a sad song
and make it better
remember to let her into your heart
then you can start to make it better
<3333
i love the beatles now :)
w00t!
take a sad song
and make it better
remember to let her into your heart
then you can start to make it better
<3333
i love the beatles now :)
w00t!
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
[[insert witty subject title here]]
i should be somewhere else right now
getting ready for choir practice
and yet
here i am
stuck once again in Elizabeth
ever since i moved i wanted nothing but to be back here where everything was different
and now that im here
i just want to go home.
mommy and vince are in vegas for their anniversary [jeez can you believe its a year this month]
everything moves so fast
the world spins on its axis and i try not to fall off.
but every now and then i wish time would slow.
getting ready for choir practice
and yet
here i am
stuck once again in Elizabeth
be careful what you wish for?
ever since i moved i wanted nothing but to be back here where everything was different
and now that im here
i just want to go home.
mommy and vince are in vegas for their anniversary [jeez can you believe its a year this month]
everything moves so fast
the world spins on its axis and i try not to fall off.
but every now and then i wish time would slow.
My Sister's Keeper
you know at first i didnt want to read it. why? i dont know. i think it was because i wanted to read it long before all the other classes had to, and since everyone else read it. i shouldnt
my mind makes no sense that way
but i am so incredibly happy that i did read it
that my curiosity got the best of me and i bought it at an aiport.
i just finished reading it for the first time and i cant stop crying.
i knew/had a feeling the ending would turn out the way it did but it didnt stop me from wanting it to change.
im not sure what else to say and why this matters.
i just thought id tell you anyway.
my mind makes no sense that way
but i am so incredibly happy that i did read it
that my curiosity got the best of me and i bought it at an aiport.
i just finished reading it for the first time and i cant stop crying.
i knew/had a feeling the ending would turn out the way it did but it didnt stop me from wanting it to change.
im not sure what else to say and why this matters.
i just thought id tell you anyway.
Monday, August 27, 2007
"him"
his name is written in white
a victim of stupidity
i never met him
but everyday i saw his name on the street sign of my bus stop
he died too early
and for no reason at all
and ill always remember him
RIP Anthony Tempesta
a victim of the 9/11 terror attacks
a victim of stupidity
i never met him
but everyday i saw his name on the street sign of my bus stop
he died too early
and for no reason at all
and ill always remember him
RIP Anthony Tempesta
a victim of the 9/11 terror attacks
i hear the crickets sing their love songs and serenades
one of the things i love about this place
you can always hear the crickets at night
and birds in the morning
nothing like hometownss
i hope my grandma will let me walk around a bit
lets see if i can convince her to let me go to my old bus stop
i need to see his name again.
you can always hear the crickets at night
and birds in the morning
nothing like hometownss
i hope my grandma will let me walk around a bit
lets see if i can convince her to let me go to my old bus stop
i need to see his name again.
in back
in my grandparents house again
im staying til tuesday
bah
i kinda dont wanna be here but i guess i dont mind it
im just not at all used to being in my old room again
and i know ive said that a million times but its true
im staying til tuesday
bah
i kinda dont wanna be here but i guess i dont mind it
im just not at all used to being in my old room again
and i know ive said that a million times but its true
Sunday, August 19, 2007
Arr! I'm looking for me burried treasure!
im at gy grandparents house.
&&im spending the night for the first time since we moved out
im in my old room and its just so weird
everything is rearranged but everything is the same.
all my stuff is in the attic and i found some pretty cool things::
-a picture of my grandma when she was my age [shes so beautiful. they called her baby]
-old love letters to my uncle from my aunt
-some of my uncle ninos old projects from college and his web design/art classes
-old things that i wrote and that my mother wrote
-a really old typewriter that my grandpa said i could keep if i could fix it
-and my grandfather is giving me his printer :D
its so cool being here again. i missed it so much. now that im here...im so happy, its just as noisy outside as i remember but quiet enough to hear crickets
im glad i came :D
i was bored last night...
I Slept With Someone From Fall Out Boy and All I Got Was This Stupid Song Written About Me
I found the cure to growing older
And you're the only place that feels like home
Just so you know,you'll never know
And some secrets weren't meant to be told
But I found the cure to growing older
I'm the first kid to write of hearts, lies, and friends
And I am sorry my conscience called in sick again
And I've got arrogance down to a science
Oh, and I'm the first kid to write of hearts, lies, and friends
Douse yourself in cheap perfume it's
So fitting, so fitting of the way you are
You can't cover it upCan't cover it up
Find a safe place, brace yourself,bite your lips
I'm sending your fingernails and empty bottles you've sipped
Back to your family cause I know you will be missed
So you can find a safe place, brace yourself
They call kids like us vicious and carved out of stone
But for what we've become, we just feel morealone
Always weigh what I've got against what I left
So progress report: I am missing you to death
Douse yourself in cheap perfume it's
So fitting, so fitting of the way you are
You can't cover it upCan't cover it upThrough it all
No one knew
Feeling borrowed
Always blue
Through it all
No one knew
Feeling borrowed
Always blue
Through it all
No one knew
Feeling borrowed
Always blue
Through it all
No one knew
Feeling borrowed
Always you.
I found a cure to growing older
I found a cure to growing older
Douse yourself in cheap perfume it's
So fitting, so fitting of the way you are
You can't cover it upCan't cover it up
Friday, August 17, 2007
uhm yeaaaahh...im gonna need you to come in on saturdayy
yeaaaahhhhh...
[[officespace]]
anyway bored.
we went to the vietnamese restaurant
and i have a vietnamese song stuck in my head
maddd annoying
cuz idk the song
or the words
ugh.
[[officespace]]
anyway bored.
we went to the vietnamese restaurant
and i have a vietnamese song stuck in my head
maddd annoying
cuz idk the song
or the words
ugh.
Thursday, August 16, 2007
in other newssss...
today is mom & vince's 11month anniversary
I KNOW! can you believe it!?
jeez. it feels like nothing
and its also the 3year anniversary of the day daddy moved to Florida
things go too fast.
I KNOW! can you believe it!?
jeez. it feels like nothing
and its also the 3year anniversary of the day daddy moved to Florida
things go too fast.
i absolutely love how...
the second i hit publish post my uncle shows up
like a knight in shining....honda?
lol anyywayy
today was fun
finished my book in the library
so yeah
oh i have to remember to get that thing for Justin tomorrow
:D
i wont forget
i wrote it on my hand :]
anyywayy
i have this excitement in me for the next school year
its gonna be amazing
i can feel it in my bones.
like a knight in shining....honda?
lol anyywayy
today was fun
finished my book in the library
so yeah
oh i have to remember to get that thing for Justin tomorrow
:D
i wont forget
i wrote it on my hand :]
anyywayy
i have this excitement in me for the next school year
its gonna be amazing
i can feel it in my bones.
Im Late! Im Late!
For a very important date!
no time to say "hello"
GOODBYE!
IM LATE!
IM LATE!
IM LATE!
[srsly. im late for disney choir...oh no! i hope crafty doesnt get mad at me :( ]
no time to say "hello"
GOODBYE!
IM LATE!
IM LATE!
IM LATE!
[srsly. im late for disney choir...oh no! i hope crafty doesnt get mad at me :( ]
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
i just filled out a myspace survey
and one of the questions was:
Have you ever attempted suicide?
response:
im only gonna answer this once. after this im never answering it again. truthfully. i thought about it really hard. and some other shit. but no. i couldnt bring myself to do it.
i never want to answer it again.
idky i felt i had to respond to that question.
but i did.
i couldnt leave it blank. and i couldnt lie.
so yeah.
:(
*sigh* oh well.
Have you ever attempted suicide?
response:
im only gonna answer this once. after this im never answering it again. truthfully. i thought about it really hard. and some other shit. but no. i couldnt bring myself to do it.
i never want to answer it again.
idky i felt i had to respond to that question.
but i did.
i couldnt leave it blank. and i couldnt lie.
so yeah.
:(
*sigh* oh well.
Monday, August 13, 2007
ive never seen a heart i couldnt break.
mmmm hmmm
you betcha. :]
so yeah
again sorry its been a while since my last post
ive been so tired latelyyy
but yeah
lifes been good lately
:D
i have some REP work to do
and i have Disney Choir this week [O.o its sooo earlyyy in the morning]
nothing really all that exciting to talk about
:D im so excited to be singing at the wedding next year!!!
majorrr pressure though cuz im going to be singing instead of them playing the wedding march
so its like really really w00sh! [haha idk how to describe]
but yeah
all is well :D
you betcha. :]
so yeah
again sorry its been a while since my last post
ive been so tired latelyyy
but yeah
lifes been good lately
:D
i have some REP work to do
and i have Disney Choir this week [O.o its sooo earlyyy in the morning]
nothing really all that exciting to talk about
:D im so excited to be singing at the wedding next year!!!
majorrr pressure though cuz im going to be singing instead of them playing the wedding march
so its like really really w00sh! [haha idk how to describe]
but yeah
all is well :D
We're High Fashion
We're Last Chances.
mmmm hmmm.
i have work today
and idk. it was sad to see how little ive written.
annnddd
i have to gooo now.
:(
ttyl :]
mmmm hmmm.
i have work today
and idk. it was sad to see how little ive written.
annnddd
i have to gooo now.
:(
ttyl :]
Monday, July 30, 2007
oh i almost forgot
i finished HP7 last week
it was amazingly good
but i dont wanna spoil it for anyone
so i wont go into details
i think it took me so long to read because
i just didnt want it to end
y'know?
but either way
i love it
it was amazingly good
but i dont wanna spoil it for anyone
so i wont go into details
i think it took me so long to read because
i just didnt want it to end
y'know?
but either way
i love it
i love this song.
The Music Or The Misery [Fall Out Boy]
I got my stitches stitched, I got my fixes fixed,
And in my aching head I got my kisses slipped.
Our gossip lips stuttered every word I said, I said,
I got your love letters, corrected the grammar and sent them back.
Its true romance is dead, I shot it in the chest then in the head.
And if you wanna go down in history then I'm your prince,
Because they've got me in a bad way I've never seen a heart I couldn't break.
It was never about the songs, it was competition,
Make the biggest scene, make the biggest...
Which came first, the music or the misery?
Where high-fashion, were last chances.
Which came first, the music or the misery?
Where high-fashion, were last chances.
I'm casually obsessed, And I've Forgiven Death,
I am indifferent yet (I am a total wreck),
I'm every cliche, but I simply do it best.
And if you wanna go down in history then I'm your prince,
Because they've got me in a bad way, I've never seen a heart I couldn't break.
It was never about the songs, it was competition,
Make the biggest scene, make the biggest...
Which came first, the music or the misery?
Where high-fashion, were last chances.
Which came first, the music or the misery?
Where high-fashion, were last chances.
(Go!)
I went to sleep a poet, and I woke up a fraud,
To calm your nerves I'm feeling for my clothes in the dark.
Which came first, the music or the misery?
Where high-fashion, were last chances.
Which came first, the music or the misery?
Where high-fashion, were last chances.
Which came first, the music or the misery?
where high-fashion, were last chances.
its been a while.
since my last post.
sorry about that
i have a lot to tell you
but idk if i should now
so i will fill you in when i get home
[just remind me]
lol
sorry about that
i have a lot to tell you
but idk if i should now
so i will fill you in when i get home
[just remind me]
lol
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Planes Trains and Automobiles
okay so::
left home at 6am
took a car to beths so she can drop us off at the train station
took the train to NY Penn station
then took a train to Jamaica Station
took the air train to our terminal
then waited for our standby seats
which we couldnt get on so
we waited until 3pm [delays delays]
for our flight
arrived at around 6 in wpb
then took the tri_?_ to FtL to get my luggage
went to see cookie & Joanna
got home
showered
and now here i am!
what a busy day!
and so tiring
but it was quite the adventure
:D
left home at 6am
took a car to beths so she can drop us off at the train station
took the train to NY Penn station
then took a train to Jamaica Station
took the air train to our terminal
then waited for our standby seats
which we couldnt get on so
we waited until 3pm [delays delays]
for our flight
arrived at around 6 in wpb
then took the tri_?_ to FtL to get my luggage
went to see cookie & Joanna
got home
showered
and now here i am!
what a busy day!
and so tiring
but it was quite the adventure
:D
Sunday, July 22, 2007
change one change two
im not sure if my computer will come with me
moms got a point about it being too much to think about
i hate packing
it makes me feel
bleh.
i wish daddy moved back here
and joanna and cookie
i wish they never left
:[
moms got a point about it being too much to think about
i hate packing
it makes me feel
bleh.
i wish daddy moved back here
and joanna and cookie
i wish they never left
:[
on a lighter note
im bringing my comp
and
i got the new Harry Potter book
its amazing
how much the world changed with the HP trend isnt it?
everyone jumps at a chance to get hold of the latest JK Rowling
and now that im reading its final book
its sad
its like meeting a friend and watching them disappear
i have yet to finish it
but i accidentally caught a glimpse of the final page
i only read one sentance but
i still wanna keep going
i cant wait to finish it
and i hope that someday
a few generations away
some kid will read these books that have been long forgotten
and treat it like a Shakespearean play
its valuable to our era.
people just dont know it yet
or maybe they do
and
i got the new Harry Potter book
its amazing
how much the world changed with the HP trend isnt it?
everyone jumps at a chance to get hold of the latest JK Rowling
and now that im reading its final book
its sad
its like meeting a friend and watching them disappear
i have yet to finish it
but i accidentally caught a glimpse of the final page
i only read one sentance but
i still wanna keep going
i cant wait to finish it
and i hope that someday
a few generations away
some kid will read these books that have been long forgotten
and treat it like a Shakespearean play
its valuable to our era.
people just dont know it yet
or maybe they do
leaving on a jet plane...
im leaving tomorrow to see my dad
i really wanna go
but
idk
part of me
just wants to stay home
:[
i really wanna go
but
idk
part of me
just wants to stay home
:[
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
oh jeez
i havent written in almost a week
thats crazyyy
anyway
i love the movie: Love Story
that was the movie that my grandparents went to on their date.
<333
its amazing
:D
Jenny Cavilleri is my hero
its the only movie that i really cried in
like a lot.
<3333
im going to florida on sunday
im gonna try to bring my computer with me
:D
so i have something to do
i want the 7th Harry Potter Book
now!
ahhh
i wanna read it
really really badly
i hope i can get it in florida
:]
im hungry
thats crazyyy
anyway
i love the movie: Love Story
that was the movie that my grandparents went to on their date.
<333
its amazing
:D
Jenny Cavilleri is my hero
its the only movie that i really cried in
like a lot.
<3333
im going to florida on sunday
im gonna try to bring my computer with me
:D
so i have something to do
i want the 7th Harry Potter Book
now!
ahhh
i wanna read it
really really badly
i hope i can get it in florida
:]
im hungry
Saturday, July 14, 2007
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
happy happy joy joy :]
okay so heres the plan
Tonight:
i go to work then im going to sleep over my cousins house
Tomorrow:
maybe going to the beach w/ her and chillaxing
Friday:
chillin then going to work and after pick her up so she can sleep over my house
Saturday:
Crystal Springs Water Park with my bestest cousin [lol] my mom and Vince
i cant wait :]
im gonna pack and stuff ^_^
Tonight:
i go to work then im going to sleep over my cousins house
Tomorrow:
maybe going to the beach w/ her and chillaxing
Friday:
chillin then going to work and after pick her up so she can sleep over my house
Saturday:
Crystal Springs Water Park with my bestest cousin [lol] my mom and Vince
i cant wait :]
im gonna pack and stuff ^_^
Monday, July 9, 2007
yay
i havent slept at all tonight
ive been up
and awake
and man im not even tired
srsly
sunrise sounds like a good idea
:]
^_^
ive been watching youtube all night
lol
im just kinda energized
probably from sleeping all day yesterday
but idk
i dont mind
ill prob. nap later
and considering i have work tonight and all
my mind says sleep might be a good idea
and i kinda just scared myself
like completely
idk how but i thought i felt something crawing on me
it was just the string on my pj bottoms
i just did
and i screamed "ahh"
a lil too loud
i hope i didnt scare my mom or anything
lol
jeez stupid myspace isnt working oh wellz
im sooo hyper!!!
i dont wanna work tonighttttt
i feel like singing
haha maybe cuz ive been watching american idol auditions
lol
idk
but yeah
its interesting
g2g sunrise ^_^
i havent slept at all tonight
ive been up
and awake
and man im not even tired
srsly
sunrise sounds like a good idea
:]
^_^
ive been watching youtube all night
lol
im just kinda energized
probably from sleeping all day yesterday
but idk
i dont mind
ill prob. nap later
and considering i have work tonight and all
my mind says sleep might be a good idea
and i kinda just scared myself
like completely
idk how but i thought i felt something crawing on me
it was just the string on my pj bottoms
i just did
and i screamed "ahh"
a lil too loud
i hope i didnt scare my mom or anything
lol
jeez stupid myspace isnt working oh wellz
im sooo hyper!!!
i dont wanna work tonighttttt
i feel like singing
haha maybe cuz ive been watching american idol auditions
lol
idk
but yeah
its interesting
g2g sunrise ^_^
:]
ive decided that
as long as theres music in the world
even the sounds of cars or footsteps or w/e
even the sound of silence
i will be happy :]
as long as theres music in the world
even the sounds of cars or footsteps or w/e
even the sound of silence
i will be happy :]
Sunday, July 8, 2007
A Public Apology From Our Sponsors [a.k.a. Me]::
ughh long day at work
ill tell you about that later
but now
i told my mom everything thats been bottled up inside
for like a while
and i know i hurt her
i know i did
and i hate myself for it
i really really really hate myself right now
i didnt mean to hurt her
thats the last thing on my mind
but i know i did
and im so sorry
im so so so sorry
and i know thats been the theme of the week
but i am just soooo sorry
for everything
and to anyone ive ever hurt intentionally or unintentionally
im sooo sorry
ive been pushing away everyone i love i know it
Please forgive me:
mom
dad
joanna
vincent
ate ana
ayla
nikki
anu
mark
and everyone else ive pushed away.
but the one person i dont think i'll ever forgive:
Amanda Marie Martinez
ill tell you about that later
but now
i told my mom everything thats been bottled up inside
for like a while
and i know i hurt her
i know i did
and i hate myself for it
i really really really hate myself right now
i didnt mean to hurt her
thats the last thing on my mind
but i know i did
and im so sorry
im so so so sorry
and i know thats been the theme of the week
but i am just soooo sorry
for everything
and to anyone ive ever hurt intentionally or unintentionally
im sooo sorry
ive been pushing away everyone i love i know it
Please forgive me:
mom
dad
joanna
vincent
ate ana
ayla
nikki
anu
mark
and everyone else ive pushed away.
but the one person i dont think i'll ever forgive:
Amanda Marie Martinez
Saturday, July 7, 2007
who i am hates who ive been
I FEEL LIKE THE WORST PERSON IN THE WORLD
SOMETIMES I JUST FEEL LIKE A FUCK UP
SERIOUSLY
I REALLY CANT STAND THE PERSON THAT I AM
AND I KNOW YOU DONT CARE OR THINK THAT IM JUST CRAVING ATTENTION
BUT IM NOT
AND I DONT GIVE A FUCK ANYMORE
I REALLY DONT
SO SAY WHAT YOU WANT
BUT RIGHT NOW
I STILL THINK IM THE ABSOLUTE WORST PERSON IN THE WORLD
IM SO SORRY, A.
SOMETIMES I JUST FEEL LIKE A FUCK UP
SERIOUSLY
I REALLY CANT STAND THE PERSON THAT I AM
AND I KNOW YOU DONT CARE OR THINK THAT IM JUST CRAVING ATTENTION
BUT IM NOT
AND I DONT GIVE A FUCK ANYMORE
I REALLY DONT
SO SAY WHAT YOU WANT
BUT RIGHT NOW
I STILL THINK IM THE ABSOLUTE WORST PERSON IN THE WORLD
IM SO SORRY, A.
ajfoiahnvgihneioaoweimnksikdnif
FUCK!!!!!!!!
nsehvgjuiujgvnoiawbgvo'abfvoiufw
i feel like the worst person in the world
i seriously do.
nsehvgjuiujgvnoiawbgvo'abfvoiufw
i feel like the worst person in the world
i seriously do.
ack
okay so i deleted one of my earlier posts for just some random reason that i dont feel like explaining
ever feel like a fuck up
yeah
one of those reasons
:[
ever feel like a fuck up
yeah
one of those reasons
:[
Friday, July 6, 2007
my sexxybeast stories!
lmao i sent them to alot of people today:::
_____________
once upon a time there was a sexxy beast by the name of ayla
(not to be confused with ayla lisset nucum)
so anyway this sexxybeast decided that she was the sexxyestbeast alive so she went to sexxybeast world and she killed all the other wannabesexxybeasts!
and then the world drowned
the end!
^_^
_____________
okay soo:
once upon a time there was a sexxybeast by the name of pinky
(not to be confused with miss pinky perez)
and she was a very very sexxybeastauditor
and she went around the earth auditing the puny little earthlings with her special calculator and Yellow highlighter OF DOOM!!!!! [who also likes to tell the earthlings to be silent while she does her work]
and then one day she found out that the Earth wasnt doing well on its audits so she called in the big TONYROBBINS to save us
and then we were all broken out of our pattern
and she highlighted us all
so we're now yellow
the end!
_______________
okay so:
once upon a time there was a sexxybeast by the name of georgeyporgey
(not to be confused with george tapia)
anyway this sexxybeast was a violinist OF DOOM!
and one day he decided that the world was boring so he went to sexxyviolinworld and they all sucked ass bananas
so then he decided to show them his amazing violin skillz
and they were so amazed that they exploded!!!!
and everyone died
the end!
______________
okay so once upon a time there was a sexxybeast by the name of lorraine
(not to be confused with the princess lorraine from the play)
and this sexxybeast liked to take myspace pictures without pants
so one day while taking myspace pictures a giant hippo said "put some pants on!"
and sexxybeastlorraine was like "STFU they are special invisible pants!"
and the hippo said "oh okay"
and then he exploded! because she used her magical invisible pants of doom against him
the end!
______________
okay so once upon a time there was a sexxybeast by the name of andrea
(not to be confused with miss andreadotcom)
and this sexxybeast liked to make tutus
and they were magical tutus
and so she went down to earth with her magical tutus and her grillz and sold them to puny earthlings who wanted her special tutu making powers
but the stupid earthlings were jealous of her skillz so they tried to copy her
but then andrea used her magical tutus of DOOM! against them
and they exploded
"haha stupid wannabees" she said!
and then the world drowned in her frilly tutu power!
the end!
______________
okay so once upon a time there was a sexxybeast named atikin
(not to be confused with nikita kieselowsky)
and this sexxybeast loved to hunt things
so one day she went to earth and hunted all the stupid earthlings
and everyone died
the end ^_^
__________________
i sent more but they havent "approved" their comments yet
so thats all for now ^_^
_____________
once upon a time there was a sexxy beast by the name of ayla
(not to be confused with ayla lisset nucum)
so anyway this sexxybeast decided that she was the sexxyestbeast alive so she went to sexxybeast world and she killed all the other wannabesexxybeasts!
and then the world drowned
the end!
^_^
_____________
okay soo:
once upon a time there was a sexxybeast by the name of pinky
(not to be confused with miss pinky perez)
and she was a very very sexxybeastauditor
and she went around the earth auditing the puny little earthlings with her special calculator and Yellow highlighter OF DOOM!!!!! [who also likes to tell the earthlings to be silent while she does her work]
and then one day she found out that the Earth wasnt doing well on its audits so she called in the big TONYROBBINS to save us
and then we were all broken out of our pattern
and she highlighted us all
so we're now yellow
the end!
_______________
okay so:
once upon a time there was a sexxybeast by the name of georgeyporgey
(not to be confused with george tapia)
anyway this sexxybeast was a violinist OF DOOM!
and one day he decided that the world was boring so he went to sexxyviolinworld and they all sucked ass bananas
so then he decided to show them his amazing violin skillz
and they were so amazed that they exploded!!!!
and everyone died
the end!
______________
okay so once upon a time there was a sexxybeast by the name of lorraine
(not to be confused with the princess lorraine from the play)
and this sexxybeast liked to take myspace pictures without pants
so one day while taking myspace pictures a giant hippo said "put some pants on!"
and sexxybeastlorraine was like "STFU they are special invisible pants!"
and the hippo said "oh okay"
and then he exploded! because she used her magical invisible pants of doom against him
the end!
______________
okay so once upon a time there was a sexxybeast by the name of andrea
(not to be confused with miss andreadotcom)
and this sexxybeast liked to make tutus
and they were magical tutus
and so she went down to earth with her magical tutus and her grillz and sold them to puny earthlings who wanted her special tutu making powers
but the stupid earthlings were jealous of her skillz so they tried to copy her
but then andrea used her magical tutus of DOOM! against them
and they exploded
"haha stupid wannabees" she said!
and then the world drowned in her frilly tutu power!
the end!
______________
okay so once upon a time there was a sexxybeast named atikin
(not to be confused with nikita kieselowsky)
and this sexxybeast loved to hunt things
so one day she went to earth and hunted all the stupid earthlings
and everyone died
the end ^_^
__________________
i sent more but they havent "approved" their comments yet
so thats all for now ^_^
Im so proud!
of my uncle Nino!!!<333
with his photography and his latest website project
^_^
i hope he knows that
with his photography and his latest website project
^_^
i hope he knows that
GoodMorning!
i love waking up to a phone call from my dad
and Julius
i even recorded Cookie ^_^
he sounded so cute!
i miss him :]
and Julius
i even recorded Cookie ^_^
he sounded so cute!
i miss him :]
my dad
never called me back
thats weird
im sure he wouldve
maybe hes very busy
and finally getting some sleep
or training for the NYC marathon that hes running
^_^
im so proud of him
thats weird
im sure he wouldve
maybe hes very busy
and finally getting some sleep
or training for the NYC marathon that hes running
^_^
im so proud of him
Thursday, July 5, 2007
i want
my dad
can you believe it?!
for the first time in my life
i want my daddy
so after a lot of suggestions
ayla convinced me to call him
and i left him a voicemail
and i feel better
i really do
well just a bit
can you believe it?!
for the first time in my life
i want my daddy
so after a lot of suggestions
ayla convinced me to call him
and i left him a voicemail
and i feel better
i really do
well just a bit
which one of these is not like the other
its not vincent
because he belongs with my mother
its not beth
because she is with my father
its not joanna
because she has julius
so does that mean
its me?
because he belongs with my mother
its not beth
because she is with my father
its not joanna
because she has julius
so does that mean
its me?
another thing
vince is over
i wanted to spend time with my mom yesterday and today
guess thats out of the question
:[
im lonely even when im not alone
i wanted to spend time with my mom yesterday and today
guess thats out of the question
:[
im lonely even when im not alone
the hole in my heart
okay so my godmother gave me this software
so i can create a family tree on my computer
i never realized how little i knew about my fathers family
i dont even know who my grandfather is
its sad
cuz my moms side is full
i know all the way up to my great great grandparents
on my dads side its empty
many blank spots
and empty boxes
see my grandmother
supposedly favored the father of my two aunts and not my father and his brother
so she left them and stuff
when i was born
she hated my mother
and tore them apart
i never met her
well i mean i did
but i only saw her maybe 3 times in my life
all by accident
she wants to know me
but i dont know if i want to know her
alot of secrets lie in my dads side of the family
and alot of bad blood
bad people i knew nothing about
bad people who are in jail and who did bad things
it makes me sad
not to know that i come from an odd family
but to find out on my own
and not by them
and im ashamed
because when i was little
i never wanted them
i never wanted to know them or talk to them
i favored my mom's family because they were there
i hated my dads family for not being there and not wanting me
now that i know what i do
i dont know what to think
i love them
i really do
and despite everything i love my grandmother
even though she left me and didnt want me
but how am i going to tell her this?
im closer to her sister than i am to her
you see her sister is Ayla's grandmother
and i see her all the time
and she is more of a grandmother to me than my own
and that really makes me sad
as for my lola (grandma on moms side)
i love her so much
and i really want to be close to her
but i think she favors my baby cousin instead
and shes always on the phone
and it drives me crazy
i want to be with her but i cant
because even though shes there
shes not
shes far away on the phone or watching tv
it makes me sad
it makes me feel empty
and i cant find a way to make this hole fill up
and that makes me cry.
so i can create a family tree on my computer
i never realized how little i knew about my fathers family
i dont even know who my grandfather is
its sad
cuz my moms side is full
i know all the way up to my great great grandparents
on my dads side its empty
many blank spots
and empty boxes
see my grandmother
supposedly favored the father of my two aunts and not my father and his brother
so she left them and stuff
when i was born
she hated my mother
and tore them apart
i never met her
well i mean i did
but i only saw her maybe 3 times in my life
all by accident
she wants to know me
but i dont know if i want to know her
alot of secrets lie in my dads side of the family
and alot of bad blood
bad people i knew nothing about
bad people who are in jail and who did bad things
it makes me sad
not to know that i come from an odd family
but to find out on my own
and not by them
and im ashamed
because when i was little
i never wanted them
i never wanted to know them or talk to them
i favored my mom's family because they were there
i hated my dads family for not being there and not wanting me
now that i know what i do
i dont know what to think
i love them
i really do
and despite everything i love my grandmother
even though she left me and didnt want me
but how am i going to tell her this?
im closer to her sister than i am to her
you see her sister is Ayla's grandmother
and i see her all the time
and she is more of a grandmother to me than my own
and that really makes me sad
as for my lola (grandma on moms side)
i love her so much
and i really want to be close to her
but i think she favors my baby cousin instead
and shes always on the phone
and it drives me crazy
i want to be with her but i cant
because even though shes there
shes not
shes far away on the phone or watching tv
it makes me sad
it makes me feel empty
and i cant find a way to make this hole fill up
and that makes me cry.
Tuesday, July 3, 2007
okay so
i feel like reliving my freshman year
so im gonna listen to From Under The Cork Tree
and pretend im on a bus
with an amazing team
sitting next to a guy who never really mattered
[and yet he did.]
and for that one moment...
so.
did.
i.
so im gonna listen to From Under The Cork Tree
and pretend im on a bus
with an amazing team
sitting next to a guy who never really mattered
[and yet he did.]
and for that one moment...
so.
did.
i.
Woah! i never meant to brag but i got him where i want him now!
i love that song.
Misery Business [Paramore]
so yeah
I cant wait!
Crystal Springs tomorrow!! ^_^
YAY! and hopefully Ayla's parents will let her sleep over too
were gonna take my grandparents to dinner tonight
then go to Kohls and buy them swimsuits
yay!
i swear
I cant wait!
Crystal Springs tomorrow!! ^_^
YAY! and hopefully Ayla's parents will let her sleep over too
were gonna take my grandparents to dinner tonight
then go to Kohls and buy them swimsuits
yay!
i swear
my grandparents are the coolest grandparents in the world!
oh wow
you suck.
seriously.
you really do.
cuz my profile count is up to 80
which means someone must be reading this
but not telling me
and that kinda pisses me off
it really makes me wanna give up on writing
and thats really sad.
seriously.
you really do.
cuz my profile count is up to 80
which means someone must be reading this
but not telling me
and that kinda pisses me off
it really makes me wanna give up on writing
and thats really sad.
Monday, July 2, 2007
tell me my favorite lie: that you'll love me til the day i die
idk why i titled this with that line
i made it up on the spot
and i like it ^_^
so yeah
this weekend was pretty rad
i made it up on the spot
and i like it ^_^
so yeah
this weekend was pretty rad
::Friday::
::Saturday::
::Today::
New haircut [its short]
Kohls for like 2 minutes
Godfather night with my mom
picked up Danyelle to help her bake a cake
Kohls for like 2 minutes
Godfather night with my mom
picked up Danyelle to help her bake a cake
::Saturday::
woke up like 8am
went to Danyelle's party
then left and went to Sam's party
was supposed to go to the fireworks at kennedy
but we were too late
went to blockbusters [rented: Crybaby, Whats eating gilbert grape, Ghost Rider, the shooter]
watched with Danyelle [Ghost rider cuz thats what she and vince wanted to see but he and my mom fell asleep]
stayed up til 4 talking to Danyelle
went to Danyelle's party
then left and went to Sam's party
was supposed to go to the fireworks at kennedy
but we were too late
went to blockbusters [rented: Crybaby, Whats eating gilbert grape, Ghost Rider, the shooter]
watched with Danyelle [Ghost rider cuz thats what she and vince wanted to see but he and my mom fell asleep]
stayed up til 4 talking to Danyelle
::Today::
watched the rest of the movies [except the shooter cuz we didnt want to]
and took a good nap
and took a good nap
^_^
overall great day/weekend
about the movies::
Ghostrider: it was better than i expected ill give you that. but i dont like Nicholas Cage. he creeps me out. idky but i think its cuzof that movie he did...Face Off i think. i saw it a long time ago and it scared me. the plot was pretty good but it was kinda cheezy like you knew it was a comic cuz it had the classic comic dialouge know what i mean
Crybaby: i loved it lol. Johnny Depp=hottie in this one...it was hilarious
Whats eating Gilbert Grape: really good and touching but kinda weird
^_^
overall great day/weekend
about the movies::
Ghostrider: it was better than i expected ill give you that. but i dont like Nicholas Cage. he creeps me out. idky but i think its cuzof that movie he did...Face Off i think. i saw it a long time ago and it scared me. the plot was pretty good but it was kinda cheezy like you knew it was a comic cuz it had the classic comic dialouge know what i mean
Crybaby: i loved it lol. Johnny Depp=hottie in this one...it was hilarious
Whats eating Gilbert Grape: really good and touching but kinda weird
^_^
Saturday, June 30, 2007
Dude...double you tee eff?!
what happened to saturday morning cartoons?!
srsly
1. teenaged mutant ninja turtles
-not as detailed
-they dont live in the sewer anymore
2. "The Legion of Superheroes"
-what the hell?!...
-okay see superfriends were good. justice league better. adventures of superman and batman really good. but come on!
-SUPERMAN IS SCRAWNY!!!
there are weird cartoon things
and srsly
this is just not cool
dude the joker has DREADS!?
wuh wuh huh wuh wuh wuh huh?!
whats with kids today
they dont understand computer glitches yet
like dude c'mon!
bring back like::
1. the original pokemon
2. Cardcaptors!
3. SAILOR MOON!
4. Tom And Jerry
etc...
OMG MADELINE!!!!
YAY....i havent seen that since like i was 7
srsly
1. teenaged mutant ninja turtles
-not as detailed
-they dont live in the sewer anymore
2. "The Legion of Superheroes"
-what the hell?!...
-okay see superfriends were good. justice league better. adventures of superman and batman really good. but come on!
-SUPERMAN IS SCRAWNY!!!
there are weird cartoon things
and srsly
this is just not cool
dude the joker has DREADS!?
wuh wuh huh wuh wuh wuh huh?!
whats with kids today
they dont understand computer glitches yet
like dude c'mon!
bring back like::
1. the original pokemon
2. Cardcaptors!
3. SAILOR MOON!
4. Tom And Jerry
etc...
OMG MADELINE!!!!
YAY....i havent seen that since like i was 7
goodmorning bright & early sunshine
How are you today?!
lol
ughhhh
my ankle hurts cuz i twisted it yesterday
when we picked up Vince's daughter Danyelle
i was helping her down the stairs and
i fell!
lmao
it was funny except
my ankles been killing me
and my sides
bahhh anyway
busy day today
1. Danyelle's 8th gr. Grad Party
man i wish i can go back to my 8th grade party
2. Sammi-luv's sweet 16th<3
yay!
AHHH
I CUT MY HAIR YESTERDAY!
idk
i kinda love it
cuz the lady straightened it
and it was all pretty
and now im like:
ahhhh its soooo shortttt
shorter than i asked
:[
now i cant hit ppl with my hair
lol
and its all flippy
cuz i got side bangss
bahhh my ankle hurts like wut yo?!
bleh this is the earliest ive waken up
since school ended
idk wut to doooo
i have to be very very quiet
[im hunting rabbits :P]
lol Danyelle is still asleep
:/
my body hurtss
ack whens my godmother coming...
i want her to see my hair
[well she saw the picture but you know what i mean]
ahhh what shoes am i gonna wear
i cant wear my white and blue flats
thats what made me fall in the first place
and if i cant walk in flats
then how the fuck do they expect me
in HEELS!
lolz
but i love wearing heels
^_^
lol
ughhhh
my ankle hurts cuz i twisted it yesterday
when we picked up Vince's daughter Danyelle
i was helping her down the stairs and
i fell!
lmao
it was funny except
my ankles been killing me
and my sides
bahhh anyway
busy day today
1. Danyelle's 8th gr. Grad Party
man i wish i can go back to my 8th grade party
2. Sammi-luv's sweet 16th<3
yay!
AHHH
I CUT MY HAIR YESTERDAY!
idk
i kinda love it
cuz the lady straightened it
and it was all pretty
and now im like:
ahhhh its soooo shortttt
shorter than i asked
:[
now i cant hit ppl with my hair
lol
and its all flippy
cuz i got side bangss
bahhh my ankle hurts like wut yo?!
bleh this is the earliest ive waken up
since school ended
idk wut to doooo
i have to be very very quiet
[im hunting rabbits :P]
lol Danyelle is still asleep
:/
my body hurtss
ack whens my godmother coming...
i want her to see my hair
[well she saw the picture but you know what i mean]
ahhh what shoes am i gonna wear
i cant wear my white and blue flats
thats what made me fall in the first place
and if i cant walk in flats
then how the fuck do they expect me
in HEELS!
lolz
but i love wearing heels
^_^
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
tutti fruitti oh rudy!
rofl
idk.
shhh im supposed to be asleep
lalala
im soo nocturnal
lately
i sleep at 3am
wake up at noon
ahhhh
its weird
lol
last weekend was pretty chill
went to Crystal Springs
with mom vince and noah
pretty cool
nice place
<33 the water
beat vince in a 50 freestyle
^_^
mmm hmm
but im outta shape
:[
oh wellz
i wish i had a pool
id be doing laps all day
^_^
that would be uber sooper mondo awesome breh!
lolz
idk
bahh im bored
idk.
shhh im supposed to be asleep
lalala
im soo nocturnal
lately
i sleep at 3am
wake up at noon
ahhhh
its weird
lol
last weekend was pretty chill
went to Crystal Springs
with mom vince and noah
pretty cool
nice place
<33 the water
beat vince in a 50 freestyle
^_^
mmm hmm
but im outta shape
:[
oh wellz
i wish i had a pool
id be doing laps all day
^_^
that would be uber sooper mondo awesome breh!
lolz
idk
bahh im bored
Saturday, June 23, 2007
The Godfather
is an amazing movie
srsly
i saw it for the first time today
srsly
i saw it for the first time today
[familyiseverything]
so yeah.
power.
money.
mobs.
family
Marlon Brando=♥
he was good as Mark Anthony then. he is amazing as Don Carleone.
theend.
power.
money.
mobs.
family
Marlon Brando=♥
he was good as Mark Anthony then. he is amazing as Don Carleone.
theend.
Thursday, June 21, 2007
i am not afraid to keep on living. i am not afraid to walk this world alone..
okay so thats kinda a lie.
lol
but its a damn good song ^_^
lol
but its a damn good song ^_^
[Famous Last Words --My Chemical Romance]
too bad its been stuck in my head the whole fuckin day
and i barely know the song
lol
WARNING:: the following may not make sense
okay so i think that his mom secretly wants us together
which is kinda weird.
ive known this kid forever
and i mean i like him and all
but c'mon
if you see the look on her face
you know that she wants us to have secret love children
*shudder*
anyyyywayyyy enough about that
^_^ vampires
and i barely know the song
lol
WARNING:: the following may not make sense
okay so i think that his mom secretly wants us together
which is kinda weird.
ive known this kid forever
and i mean i like him and all
but c'mon
if you see the look on her face
you know that she wants us to have secret love children
*shudder*
anyyyywayyyy enough about that
^_^ vampires
Die Young. Live Forever
i really should be folding that bigass pile of laundry
so yeah
toes are cold
but i hate socks
mmmm hmmm
anyway
plans to go to the carnival with laura
YAY!
cant wait
but for some reason
im kinda not feeling up to it
idky
but im sure once i get there ill be fine
^_^
video premiere for GCH: clothes off
good song<3
haha weird vid
lalalalalala
okay?
okay!
haha theres no food in the fridge
and im hungry
so here i go
on the quest to find food in the kitchen!
*cue ominous music*
and i think laura forgot she put me on hold
lol
toes are cold
but i hate socks
mmmm hmmm
anyway
plans to go to the carnival with laura
YAY!
cant wait
but for some reason
im kinda not feeling up to it
idky
but im sure once i get there ill be fine
^_^
video premiere for GCH: clothes off
good song<3
haha weird vid
lalalalalala
okay?
okay!
haha theres no food in the fridge
and im hungry
so here i go
on the quest to find food in the kitchen!
*cue ominous music*
and i think laura forgot she put me on hold
lol
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
boo!
so yeah
id like just once
for my mom to come home
and not yell at me immediately
maybe?
please?
i mean seriously
when did things go from
ehm.bee.eff.eff.
to like RAWR CATFIGHT!
i dont know
maybe its cuz im older
or maybe its cuz things are different
or maybe im different
i dont know
i want things back to normal
(if there is such a thing as normal)
bahhhhhh
i really really wanna cry right now
and i have no fucking reason to
ever have those moments?
im sure you dont
or hell maybe you do
who knows
yay vincents here -_-
i kinda dont wanna say hi to him right now
cuz im sure everything im about to say
will come out
absolutely and utterly
horrible
and of course taken completely outta context
*sigh*
i dont know if its just that im not used to having some sort of "father figure" around
or im not used to having to share my mom with said "father figure".
i mean
bah who am i kidding i dont know what i mean
i never know what i mean
i have a lump in my throat the size of alaska
just thought id share that teeny tiny tidbit of information with you
im not a puppet im a real boy
WHAT THE FUCK!?
FUCK THE WHAT?!
haha i just really wanted to type that
wow i really am weird
you know sometimes i wish my mom would be just a tiny bit curious
and actually read this
but i know she wont unless i tell her to
i mean ack i dunno
id like it for people to read this without me having to tell them to
cuz then maybe
just maybe
that difference that i wanted
that change i wanted to create
just.
might.
happen.
but anyway
i sound like a broken record dont i?
maybe i am
im like on one of those old school record players
im a really vintaged vinyl and im skipping
over
and
over
and
over
until finally
i
just
stop
then again maybe not
yep
may
be
not
id like just once
for my mom to come home
and not yell at me immediately
maybe?
please?
i mean seriously
when did things go from
ehm.bee.eff.eff.
to like RAWR CATFIGHT!
i dont know
maybe its cuz im older
or maybe its cuz things are different
or maybe im different
i dont know
i want things back to normal
(if there is such a thing as normal)
bahhhhhh
i really really wanna cry right now
and i have no fucking reason to
ever have those moments?
im sure you dont
or hell maybe you do
who knows
yay vincents here -_-
i kinda dont wanna say hi to him right now
cuz im sure everything im about to say
will come out
absolutely and utterly
horrible
and of course taken completely outta context
*sigh*
i dont know if its just that im not used to having some sort of "father figure" around
or im not used to having to share my mom with said "father figure".
i mean
bah who am i kidding i dont know what i mean
i never know what i mean
i have a lump in my throat the size of alaska
just thought id share that teeny tiny tidbit of information with you
im not a puppet im a real boy
WHAT THE FUCK!?
FUCK THE WHAT?!
haha i just really wanted to type that
wow i really am weird
you know sometimes i wish my mom would be just a tiny bit curious
and actually read this
but i know she wont unless i tell her to
i mean ack i dunno
id like it for people to read this without me having to tell them to
cuz then maybe
just maybe
that difference that i wanted
that change i wanted to create
just.
might.
happen.
but anyway
i sound like a broken record dont i?
maybe i am
im like on one of those old school record players
im a really vintaged vinyl and im skipping
over
and
over
and
over
until finally
i
just
stop
then again maybe not
yep
may
be
not
in between watching OTH online
okay so
1. their graduation outfits=our chorus outfits lol
2. i love Karen for spitting at dan and saying what she did about lily and keith
and you probably have no idea what im talking about
but thats okay
cuz well isnt that what always happens anyway?
lol
^_^
1. their graduation outfits=our chorus outfits lol
2. i love Karen for spitting at dan and saying what she did about lily and keith
and you probably have no idea what im talking about
but thats okay
cuz well isnt that what always happens anyway?
lol
^_^
hmmm. something to think about
okay so i have just discovered the wonderful world of...
PODCASTS!
lol srsly
like i downloaded them from the itunes store
but like theyre free and wut not
lol and its weird cuz like
okay ever watch one tree hill? like the tv show
well i love it
and theres this character named Peyton Sawyer
and shes really like awesome
or at least the portrayed character
you know what i mean?
and she has like a Podcast
that she does on most of the episodes
that you can download onto your ipod
and ive kinda downloaded all the ones that are audio
and theyre amazing
im not sure if its a script or if that how she really is
(hillarie burton the actress who plays peyton i mean)
but its so insightful
and like really good.
bahhh i dont know
thats weird right?
like listening to that stuff
but its really good and i really like listening to it
so yeah.
thought id share that with you
maybe i should create a podcast?
but then...how?
and would that be better than writing?
well of course not
cuz writing is safer.
it feels safer
at least to me
and it sometimes feels like im in some trance
where i can write down exactly how i feel
without being afraid to censor myself
or like make sure that what ever i say doesnt hurt anyone
it makes me feel free
in an odd sense
it probably doesnt make any sense to you
but it does to me
and isnt that why i write
haha why the hell did i just ask you that
how would you know why i write or not
you dont
so there!
uhm
what?!
i dunno im confusing myself
baaahhhhh
okay. so yeah
hooray for watching one tree hill online
^_^
hold on kay?
PODCASTS!
lol srsly
like i downloaded them from the itunes store
but like theyre free and wut not
lol and its weird cuz like
okay ever watch one tree hill? like the tv show
well i love it
and theres this character named Peyton Sawyer
and shes really like awesome
or at least the portrayed character
you know what i mean?
and she has like a Podcast
that she does on most of the episodes
that you can download onto your ipod
and ive kinda downloaded all the ones that are audio
and theyre amazing
im not sure if its a script or if that how she really is
(hillarie burton the actress who plays peyton i mean)
but its so insightful
and like really good.
bahhh i dont know
thats weird right?
like listening to that stuff
but its really good and i really like listening to it
so yeah.
thought id share that with you
maybe i should create a podcast?
but then...how?
and would that be better than writing?
well of course not
cuz writing is safer.
it feels safer
at least to me
and it sometimes feels like im in some trance
where i can write down exactly how i feel
without being afraid to censor myself
or like make sure that what ever i say doesnt hurt anyone
it makes me feel free
in an odd sense
it probably doesnt make any sense to you
but it does to me
and isnt that why i write
haha why the hell did i just ask you that
how would you know why i write or not
you dont
so there!
uhm
what?!
i dunno im confusing myself
baaahhhhh
okay. so yeah
hooray for watching one tree hill online
^_^
hold on kay?
idk
okay so i love my nano
but idk
maybe i shoulda gotten a video like my mom said
then again i mean i dont need it
and besides i wrote my name on it in sharpie already
ahhh
no. im being stupid
and greedy
i dont need a video
and i love my nano fine
dont mind me
im being a selfish brat O.o
but idk
maybe i shoulda gotten a video like my mom said
then again i mean i dont need it
and besides i wrote my name on it in sharpie already
ahhh
no. im being stupid
and greedy
i dont need a video
and i love my nano fine
dont mind me
im being a selfish brat O.o
okay so watching montel right...
cuz that sylvia brown lady is there
and her long nails reminded me of the dream i had last night
where this creepy lady killed her baby
with her freakish nails
and she was telling me how it all happened
psssyyyyycccchhhhoooooo
and scary
cuz she was all creepy and wut not
scratching things with her large nails
mostly her baby though
it was really gross
blood everywhere
*shudder*
also my uncle wants me to work
and i kinda dont want to...
cuz i want one work free week
for this summer
bahhh
and her long nails reminded me of the dream i had last night
where this creepy lady killed her baby
with her freakish nails
and she was telling me how it all happened
psssyyyyycccchhhhoooooo
and scary
cuz she was all creepy and wut not
scratching things with her large nails
mostly her baby though
it was really gross
blood everywhere
*shudder*
also my uncle wants me to work
and i kinda dont want to...
cuz i want one work free week
for this summer
bahhh
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
that sucks ass bananas
lmao i love dropping daylight<3
so yeah ive decided that winning at solitare is a skill you have to acquire through time
i think im getting there...lol
for some reason when my computer freezes if i play a game of solitare it just works
idky
well anyway
today was pretty much uneventful
(which really does suck ass bananas)
i really do hate it when my mom tells me i waste my time
watching stuff on youtube
or listening to music
i dont tell her shes wasting her time when shes planting things in the yard
or like when she listens to her anthony robbins crap
but whatever.
not my problem
so yeah
im pretty much bored.
it annoys me to think that no one reads this
but i guess it makes sense
people are more interested with like paris hilton in jail
and which celeb broke up and impregnated whom
no one really cares about the real people who have other shit going on
but then again why would they?
ah im just bitching. so dont mind me
tell me about you
oh wait
you cant
you dont exist
my bad
i like to write this as if i were talking to someone though
cuz thats just how i think
odd huh?
oh well
ever wish you could hear other people's thoughts?
i do
just so somethings can make some sense
but i guess we have to learn things on our own
i cant imagine driving
i cant imagine graduating
i cant imagine going to college and living on my own
i cant imagine growing up
or is it that i dont want to?
probably both.
yeah most likely both.
sometimes i wonder if people criticize me as much as i do myself?
i hope not
cuz that would kinda suck (ass bananas!)
ever have an insightful conversation with yourself?
(would that be a monologue? or a soliloquy?)
i do
obviously or i wouldnt be telling you about it
but yeah
then i argue with myself about like random shit
i tend to yell at myself to
lol why am i telling you this?
so yeah ive decided that winning at solitare is a skill you have to acquire through time
i think im getting there...lol
for some reason when my computer freezes if i play a game of solitare it just works
idky
well anyway
today was pretty much uneventful
(which really does suck ass bananas)
i really do hate it when my mom tells me i waste my time
watching stuff on youtube
or listening to music
i dont tell her shes wasting her time when shes planting things in the yard
or like when she listens to her anthony robbins crap
but whatever.
not my problem
so yeah
im pretty much bored.
it annoys me to think that no one reads this
but i guess it makes sense
people are more interested with like paris hilton in jail
and which celeb broke up and impregnated whom
no one really cares about the real people who have other shit going on
but then again why would they?
ah im just bitching. so dont mind me
tell me about you
oh wait
you cant
you dont exist
my bad
i like to write this as if i were talking to someone though
cuz thats just how i think
odd huh?
oh well
ever wish you could hear other people's thoughts?
i do
just so somethings can make some sense
but i guess we have to learn things on our own
i cant imagine driving
i cant imagine graduating
i cant imagine going to college and living on my own
i cant imagine growing up
or is it that i dont want to?
probably both.
yeah most likely both.
sometimes i wonder if people criticize me as much as i do myself?
i hope not
cuz that would kinda suck (ass bananas!)
ever have an insightful conversation with yourself?
(would that be a monologue? or a soliloquy?)
i do
obviously or i wouldnt be telling you about it
but yeah
then i argue with myself about like random shit
i tend to yell at myself to
lol why am i telling you this?
I dream of Petey <3
mmmm hmmmm
best dream ever
no its not one of those kinds of dreams
anyway here goes::
____________________
okay so it starts off on the way to the lincoln tunnel with my dad
and hes the one taking me to the concert [fall out boy of course]
anyyywayyyy
idk why but you know that looped road that leads into the tunnel
with the tolls at the bottom?
well it turned into a line for the show
the toll is the ticket stand
and the tunnel
is the stage
O.o
so because we have ez-pass (yeah i know cheezy) we can go all the way to the front
by the stage ^_^
so then my dad isnt my dad and it turns into the girl i originally went to the concert with before
and we're up front all happy and wutnot
but for some reason
im on stage and off to the side...like leaning against a wall
and i seee
Patrick warming up
Joe practicing his Trohmania
Andy drumming a great riff
and Pete staring at me (O.o)
and of course the same guard who pulled me outta my crowd surf
decides to kick me offstage
so i do and pete follows
(me= Vaaaat?! O.o)
and then he starts talking to me
Pw=hi im pete
am=yeah i know. im amanda! (^_^) can i get your autograph
pw= no
am= oh right cuz then you have to sign everyone elses and its not fair yadda yadda yadda
pw= actually i was kidding
am= oh. (leave it to me to be an idiot even in my dream!)
pw= what do you want me to sign
am=(thinks of her journal which she left at home; then tells him about it and her cd that she wanted him to sign and hands him a different notebook)
so then we start talking some more (and of course marisol is there....HA! now you cant tell me youve never been to a concert before or that i didnt take you....cuz boom! there you are chattin it up with petey and staring at patrick)
so anyway back to the point
we talk for wut seems like hours and next thing you know the show is done
and they leave and im walking with them
still talking to them (all of them now)
and we walk into this restaurant and we're about to order pizza
annnddddd
i wake up. o.O
best dream ever
no its not one of those kinds of dreams
anyway here goes::
____________________
okay so it starts off on the way to the lincoln tunnel with my dad
and hes the one taking me to the concert [fall out boy of course]
anyyywayyyy
idk why but you know that looped road that leads into the tunnel
with the tolls at the bottom?
well it turned into a line for the show
the toll is the ticket stand
and the tunnel
is the stage
O.o
so because we have ez-pass (yeah i know cheezy) we can go all the way to the front
by the stage ^_^
so then my dad isnt my dad and it turns into the girl i originally went to the concert with before
and we're up front all happy and wutnot
but for some reason
im on stage and off to the side...like leaning against a wall
and i seee
Patrick warming up
Joe practicing his Trohmania
Andy drumming a great riff
and Pete staring at me (O.o)
and of course the same guard who pulled me outta my crowd surf
decides to kick me offstage
so i do and pete follows
(me= Vaaaat?! O.o)
and then he starts talking to me
Pw=hi im pete
am=yeah i know. im amanda! (^_^) can i get your autograph
pw= no
am= oh right cuz then you have to sign everyone elses and its not fair yadda yadda yadda
pw= actually i was kidding
am= oh. (leave it to me to be an idiot even in my dream!)
pw= what do you want me to sign
am=(thinks of her journal which she left at home; then tells him about it and her cd that she wanted him to sign and hands him a different notebook)
so then we start talking some more (and of course marisol is there....HA! now you cant tell me youve never been to a concert before or that i didnt take you....cuz boom! there you are chattin it up with petey and staring at patrick)
so anyway back to the point
we talk for wut seems like hours and next thing you know the show is done
and they leave and im walking with them
still talking to them (all of them now)
and we walk into this restaurant and we're about to order pizza
annnddddd
i wake up. o.O
Monday, June 18, 2007
i hate chain mail
like the whole
"you will die in 7days shit"
but you ever read the one about the smith sisters or whatever
thats fuckin scaryyyy
anyway gotta sleep moms yelling
again
"you will die in 7days shit"
but you ever read the one about the smith sisters or whatever
thats fuckin scaryyyy
anyway gotta sleep moms yelling
again
Thursday, June 14, 2007
whats this?!
<333
i love that sonnnggg
shhh im supposed to be asleep
lol
^_^
oh well no school tom. anyway
i got to hang out with mommy today
YAY! ^_^
it was fun
and like it used to be
and i was truly happy
i think im gonna try and sleep now
goodnightworld!
i love that sonnnggg
shhh im supposed to be asleep
lol
^_^
oh well no school tom. anyway
i got to hang out with mommy today
YAY! ^_^
it was fun
and like it used to be
and i was truly happy
i think im gonna try and sleep now
goodnightworld!
wow
read a few more old mail
wow was i pathetic
=|
lonnnnggg story
dont even ask
well thats enough of reading that stuff
its so stupid
anywayyyyy
im bored
im bored
im bored
^_^
you should comment this
it would make me
un-bored
lalalalalala
and id feel special<3
i wonder
how much did i really change this year?
cuz i know i did
but it doesnt feel like it at all
and yet it really does
does that make sense?
of course not
wow was i pathetic
=|
lonnnnggg story
dont even ask
well thats enough of reading that stuff
its so stupid
anywayyyyy
im bored
im bored
im bored
^_^
you should comment this
it would make me
un-bored
lalalalalala
and id feel special<3
i wonder
how much did i really change this year?
cuz i know i did
but it doesnt feel like it at all
and yet it really does
does that make sense?
of course not
Last day of school blues and greys [and every other color you want]
okay so im currently talking to the senior who adopted me in my freshman year
why?
cuz she's pretty much AMAZING
and its always nice to talk to her
cuz im her stupid loud freshman
haha good times
i cant believe im gonna be a JUNIOR now
this is just so crazy
i went from being adopted by a senior
to adopting frosh
O.o
haha...how odd.
and its so creepy
well anyway
i got my ipod last night<3
so happy bout that
i really dont know what to do
so yeah today was pretty much the best day ever!
i was originally going to stay with my french teacher but since i was the only one left
she let me go
^_^
so i just left
and i found some friends
we walked to kennedy park
(chinese was still closed)
and so we hung out in the playground
anu and i went on the spinny thing
just like we did during that 8th grade fun day thing
and just like we did then
we got off feeling sick for hours
haha
after the park we walked
supposed to be shoprite
but we all separated
[it was bound to happen there were like 23 of us]
and anu, sammi, and i
went to get pizza
[anu bought me lunch ^_^
she said it was pay back for when we went to the movies
and she lost her ticket
so i bought her another one]
and we just chilled
eventually everyone ended up at the pizza place
and we were pretty loud
^_^
it was a good day
then sammi and anu walked me back to the school
so i can catch my bus home
3 people were on the bus
only 3
it was soooo weird
!
why?
cuz she's pretty much AMAZING
and its always nice to talk to her
cuz im her stupid loud freshman
haha good times
i cant believe im gonna be a JUNIOR now
this is just so crazy
i went from being adopted by a senior
to adopting frosh
O.o
haha...how odd.
and its so creepy
well anyway
i got my ipod last night<3
so happy bout that
i really dont know what to do
so yeah today was pretty much the best day ever!
i was originally going to stay with my french teacher but since i was the only one left
she let me go
^_^
so i just left
and i found some friends
we walked to kennedy park
(chinese was still closed)
and so we hung out in the playground
anu and i went on the spinny thing
just like we did during that 8th grade fun day thing
and just like we did then
we got off feeling sick for hours
haha
after the park we walked
supposed to be shoprite
but we all separated
[it was bound to happen there were like 23 of us]
and anu, sammi, and i
went to get pizza
[anu bought me lunch ^_^
she said it was pay back for when we went to the movies
and she lost her ticket
so i bought her another one]
and we just chilled
eventually everyone ended up at the pizza place
and we were pretty loud
^_^
it was a good day
then sammi and anu walked me back to the school
so i can catch my bus home
3 people were on the bus
only 3
it was soooo weird
!
[&&at that moment i swear we were infinite]
its all just so crazy
bahhhh im gonna be a junior
im gonna graduate in 2years!?
ill make these next two years
incredible
another reason why i love talking to her
its all just so crazy
bahhhh im gonna be a junior
im gonna graduate in 2years!?
ill make these next two years
incredible
shannon (5:38:39 PM) : IT'S THE GOD DAMN KID
me (5:38:38 PM) : hahahhahaha
me (5:38:41 PM) : wow
me (5:38:48 PM) : best thing ive heard all day
it really is the best thing ive heard all day
<333shannon (5:39:00 PM) : i'm going to hell anyway
shannon (5:39:05 PM) : i might as well enjoy the trip
it really is the best thing ive heard all day
another reason why i love talking to her
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
cuz tonight everyone will remember us
i feel like writing alot today
maybe ill break the 5 post record from uhm the tenth?
^_^
yay
lalalala
hmmmm...
wut else happened today?
nothing really now that i think about
oh oh oh did i tell you
did i tell you
maybe ill break the 5 post record from uhm the tenth?
^_^
yay
lalalala
hmmmm...
wut else happened today?
nothing really now that i think about
oh oh oh did i tell you
did i tell you
i should tell you
i should tell you
well here we go
now we knowwww...
i should tell you
well here we go
now we knowwww...
I figured out how to play GOLDEN
on the pianooo
yay!
i love it
that song is amazing
it makes me happy
now all i need to learn are the chords used
in the background
and the intro
and im all set
^_^
yay yay yay!
feeling hyper
gonna sing
maybe practice some piano
we'll see
haha
wow
again
poetic
for me
^_^
damn im good
haha
i better go now before i get all egotistical
<333333333
byeloverss
on the pianooo
yay!
i love it
that song is amazing
it makes me happy
now all i need to learn are the chords used
in the background
and the intro
and im all set
^_^
yay yay yay!
feeling hyper
gonna sing
maybe practice some piano
we'll see
im gonna dance in the rain babyyy...
shower me with tears
and close those sad eyes
cuz tonight everyone will remember us
shower me with tears
and close those sad eyes
cuz tonight everyone will remember us
haha
wow
again
poetic
for me
^_^
damn im good
haha
i better go now before i get all egotistical
<333333333
byeloverss
you could be my punkrockprincess i could be your garagebandking<3
i love that song<333
current favorite
current favorite
Punk Rock Princess [Something Corporate]
idky
i havent listened to it since my best friend anu downloaded it
when she slept over the night of my birthdayparty last year
but yeah
bahhh that algebra2 final was harder than i thought it would be
=(
oh wellz
getting my nano todayyyyy
YAY!!!! ^_^
sooo happy bout that...
this way i wont be completely bored when i stay in my french room with ellie tomorrow
im not going home early
cuz i dont have a ride
but its all good
i get to chillax with madame nanda and ellie
plus id be wayyyy too bored if i went home
anyyywayyy
i cant wait to go to walmart tonight
i did all my chores yesterday
listening to fall out boyyy
big surprise there
lol
i just love them<33333333333
i havent listened to it since my best friend anu downloaded it
when she slept over the night of my birthdayparty last year
but yeah
bahhh that algebra2 final was harder than i thought it would be
=(
oh wellz
getting my nano todayyyyy
YAY!!!! ^_^
sooo happy bout that...
this way i wont be completely bored when i stay in my french room with ellie tomorrow
im not going home early
cuz i dont have a ride
but its all good
i get to chillax with madame nanda and ellie
plus id be wayyyy too bored if i went home
anyyywayyy
i cant wait to go to walmart tonight
i did all my chores yesterday
listening to fall out boyyy
big surprise there
lol
i just love them<33333333333
im a stich awayyy from making it
and a scarrrr away from falling apart
blood cells pixelate and eyes dialate
cuz the way your pills it kills the mouths of all my friends
cut it loooosssseeee
watch you work the room
cut if looooosssseee
watch you work the room.
and a scarrrr away from falling apart
blood cells pixelate and eyes dialate
cuz the way your pills it kills the mouths of all my friends
cut it loooosssseeee
watch you work the room
cut if looooosssseee
watch you work the room.
so yeah bahhh
boredom
i just love writing here
to you
idky
its like my journal y'know
im gonna publish that btw
^_^
but yeah
anyyywayyyyy
lalalallalala
i dont know what to write about
oh yeah i took my english final
it was fun
i love the essay topic i chose
about who was the true hero in Julius Caesar
first i outlined the criteria for what makes a true hero
(yay for mythology class with mr vanderbeek in freshman year)
and then i just listed what components make a good hero
i came up with the results that Brutus was more of a hero than Mark Anthony
personally i really liked the character of Mark Anthony at first
i thought that he was really loyal in the sense that he wanted revenge for Julius
i mean its what i woulda done
but i think he got to power hungry y'know?
so i tried Brutus who in my opinion was the bigger man
because at least all his motives were for what he thought was the betterment of Rome
well anywayy i liked Mark Anthony's Eulogy at Caesars funeral
i memorized it <333
boredom
i just love writing here
to you
idky
its like my journal y'know
im gonna publish that btw
^_^
but yeah
anyyywayyyyy
lalalallalala
i dont know what to write about
oh yeah i took my english final
it was fun
i love the essay topic i chose
about who was the true hero in Julius Caesar
first i outlined the criteria for what makes a true hero
(yay for mythology class with mr vanderbeek in freshman year)
and then i just listed what components make a good hero
i came up with the results that Brutus was more of a hero than Mark Anthony
personally i really liked the character of Mark Anthony at first
i thought that he was really loyal in the sense that he wanted revenge for Julius
i mean its what i woulda done
but i think he got to power hungry y'know?
so i tried Brutus who in my opinion was the bigger man
because at least all his motives were for what he thought was the betterment of Rome
well anywayy i liked Mark Anthony's Eulogy at Caesars funeral
i memorized it <333
Friends! Romans! Countrymen!<333
Lend me your ears!
I come to bury Caesar
not praise him
the evil that men do lives after them
the good are oft interred with their bones
so let it be with Caesar
the noble Brutus hath said that he were ambitious
if he were twas a grievous fault
and grievously hath Caesar pay
here under the leave of Brutus and the rest
come i speak at Caesar's funeral
for he was my friend faithful and just to me
but Brutus said he was ambitious
and Brutus is an honorable man
so are they all honorable men!
he hath brought many captives to Rome
whose ransom did the general coffers fill
Did this in Caesar seem ambitious
when the poor hath cried Caesar hath wept
Ambition should be made of sterner stuff!
Yet Brutus says he was ambitious
and Brutus is an honorable man!
You did see that on the Lupercal
i Thrice offered him a kingly crown
which he did refuse, Was that ambition?
Yet Brutus says he was ambitious
and sure, he is an honorable man
I speak not to disprove what Brutus spoke
But here i am to speak what i do know
You all did love him once, not without cause
What cause withholds you to mourn for him
O judgement thou art fled to brutish beasts!
and men have lost their reason
Bear with me
My heart is in the coffin there with Caesar
and i must pause til it come back to me
im sooo sad though
i forgot like alot of it
so i had to reread it and copy off of my copy of it that i put on my wall
lol
=(
im gonna rememorize it
its one of those things that is good to have with you
<3
i love it
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